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[musewars]

nanowrimo starts at midnight...

[notdifferent-justme]

ficdirectory

I really like this.  Very vivid.

Thank you! This really means a lot. I was very nervous to post this.

[musewars]

writing snippets: a look into the mirror

Taken from Not All Who Wander (Lab Rats)

Just as it had been the first time, back when he was in Davenport’s plane, it was a strange thing to step before the mirror. It was almost a foreign act for him to do so, a thought which made Spike pause. He had no desire to glance into the small piece of glass before him because there was no sense of significance in doing so. The way he looked held little importance to him, just as it was for what he ate or wore. All of it was mere necessity.

Yet it mattered to everyone else. Every day he had been asked what he wanted to eat or do or watch or a hundred other things. And each of these choices mattered to them, something he was becoming painfully aware of yet could not comprehend, To Spike, food was needed for nourishment and clothes provided protection from the elements around him. That was all. But to everyone else these things held more regard than that.

Spike looked into the mirror. The same face he recalled from before stared back. Yet the longer he looked, the more uncomfortable Spike became. Something was wrong, a primal sort of thing which he couldn’t find the words to explain yet was beyond aware.

Pulling away his gaze again, Spike looked around the room. His gut dropped further the more he did. None of this was his. The items he had been using all this time, the place he slept, the objects which occupied his time, the people around him… not even the face which he saw in the mirror. All of it belonged to someone else.

No, his mind countered defiantly; he had his name. That was his at least. And yet, even that he could not full claim, as it was an acronym. Not a name, but a shortcut for a bunch of words that had been listed to describe what he was.

And what he was, as much as he did not wish to admit to such, was no a man. Spike was a parasite. Every moment he remained meant one less for Chase to live. Spike was robbing the boy, stealing him away from his family and those who cared for him. Spike was a damn computer app, a series of binary code created to serve a purpose when initiated. Wasn’t that all Spike truly cared about? Wasn’t that around which everything in his life surrounded?

His life…

He had no life.

And yet…

Spike looked back into the mirror, willing himself again to stare into the face. Chase Davenport stared back at him. The expression was pained now. Yes, Spike knew the truth. He understood. This was Chase’s life; he was merely here, existing within it. Spike was nothing, a painfully inapt, incomplete substitute who contributed nothing. Yet he still didn’t want to leave.

He didn’t want to die.

[unlessimwrongwhichyouknowimnot]

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Nicknames: Em (short for Emily)

Star sign: Capricorn

Height: 5′2″

Time right now: 4:30pm

Last thing I Googled: a social service agency

Last TV show I watched: The first episode of Love (a Netflix original)

When I created this blog: I honestly can’t remember...

Why did I choose my URL?: It’s a line from the tv show Monk that I always liked (’cause I like being right about stuff)

Gender: AFAB, hesitantly exploring a non-binary identity

Hogwarts House: Hufflepuff and proud

Pokemon GO Team: I never got into Pokemon

Favorite color: Blue

Lucky number: 11

Favorite character: 

From AoS - Fitz, Simmons, Daisy, Elena, Mack, Hunter, Bobbi, Joey 

From B99 - Jake, Amy, Holt, Terry, Rosa (and basically everyone)

From Harry Potter - Luna, Neville, Hermione, Remus

Number of blankets I sleep with: 1 - I just bought a new blanket a couple weeks ago and it’s so nice to sleep with!! It’s thick and soft and one side is purple and flannel and the other side is white and fluffy and it’s the best blanket ever!! I like blankets...

Tagging: @jewishfitz, @hemnalini, @fitzsimmonsaf and anyone who would like to do this. Obviously, no pressure if you don’t want to!

[jackabelle73]

ficdirectory answered your question “Anyone ever think about why some TV shows (or movies, books, etc)...”

For me, it's missing scenes. Moments I would like to have seen on screen but did not. Also, the desire to talk to other people who are watching the same show as me.

I think missing scenes are a factor for me as well. It’s like it almost helps for the show to be badly written, b/c then it gives fandom a lot to discuss and debate, and write fix-it fic or missing-scenes fic about.

[jdnerd]

JD!! You should 'go here' and see The Fosters. It is maddening and it is also SO REAL the way Jesus is being treated. Tuesday nights, Freeform, 8/7c if youre interested. It's also on Netflix except for the most recent 3 episodes.

“SO REAL” is the truth. After years of talking/learning from you two, that’s abundantly clear. lol and I “went there” for a little! I just don’t go anywhere anymore though.

[notdifferent-justme]

ficdirectory replied to your post: Be unforgiving and don’t waiver when it comes to...

I agree!  But I also find it so hard to be firm, as we are taught to be small and quiet all throughout life and then we turn 18 and it’s like SPEAK UP FOR YOURSELF.  So difficult.

I still find it hard to be firm as well and still have issues speaking up for myself. I wish someone early on had told me that it was ok to be firm and demand my rights. Would have made the transition into adulthood so much easier.

[black-john-lennon-archive]

I love your Glee episode rankings so far, they are so involved. I was thinking of doing something SOMEWHAT similar just because my least favorite episode as of right now also has my most favorite solo ever, and I just can't let that slide without singing its praises. Love that you include both positives and negatives even in your least favorite episodes and you have a refreshingly interesting take on a lot of things <3

Thank you! I love Glee so much, I can always find positives, I never fell into that hating Glee trap that a lot of fandom fell into. I can find moments even in the dullest episode.