hasn't it been long enough since whatever happened duplix? why are you still running?
"Why the hell....... are you talking as if you know what happened...?
I mean-- nothing... nothing happened, I'm not.........
...
Fuck... I hate this. I feel like I'm gonna throw up...."
He shifts and fidgets uncomfortably, debating with himself for a long while about how he's going to respond. A whole minute and a half of awkward silence passes, before he sighs in defeat.
"........ Everyone on this ship is running from something. Mostly the law, in some form or another..... And at first, so was I. Something bad happened and... I was in a lot of trouble for it..... So I ran.
Time passed, and I knew eventually they'd stop caring, but... I still cared........ I had... I had a way different life before this..... Fuck... I had such a different life....
Yeah, I'm scared of getting in trouble, but I'm.... I'm on a fucking pirate ship with a fleet deserter and several mutants and other rejects....... I'd get in trouble even if no one remembered what I did....
I just-- The thing I'm scared of is thinking about it. I don't want to think about the way everything got screwed...... Like you don't get it, I fucked EVERYTHING up...... My life was ideal. But now I'm here, and I don't want to be here, but where the fuck else am I gonna go? What if everything ends up even worse?
I'm fucking.... paralyzed by the idea that at any moment, my life could get ten times worse, even though I don't even know what went wrong the first time. It's terrifying. It's terrifying and I hate thinking about it, I hate talking about it, and I hate all of you for constantly pressuring me to address it.
I just.... I just want to fucking cook. Leave me alone...."