yesterday late afternoon or early evening something hit… like a heavy weird wave… i felt like suddenly giving up... frustrated, looping, done… funny thing no clue where it came from just this sense of fuck it kurwa… but at midnight during a quick lil prayer eyes closed… mind still i suddenly felt something shift like a cold touch between my eyes… gentle… then gone in a flash and something in me just quieted… this morning i stepped into an interview thinking i’d just show up you know and instead… i connected… for real… the vibe was there… they said “très bien” few times and at one point just said, “i trust you” that kinda hit different… we vibed on the same values… transparency, honesty, clear communication and respect… money matters for sure but i am not working with anyone i don’t vibe with… they can keep their cash… i’d rather sleep in peace than stack money and lose myself… we work to live not live to work… that said… give me both… peaceful sleep and money in the pocket… that’s the real win eh… they told me they chose company A over B because it just felt right and one year in… they’re still glad… and i get that… now the project’s on hold until september like everyone’s on vacation… maybe it works out… maybe something else fits first… i move forward. i stay open. i am proud. i follow the vibe… first come, first fit…