DATE IS A SUCCESS! I think?
Ahhhh! My first impression of him was that he was hmm, fucking like...He’s good looking as fuck! I’m standing here, sweating like a beast while he’s there looking all flawless.
I...I couldn’t help but panic for a second before he brought me back to um, reality. Hahaha! I feel like I did a lot of the bad talking but that’s because well, I’m making sure he doesn’t have any requires of that. I...I trust him. From what happened today, I think he’s an amazing mythical talkative creature.
There were a few times where I didn’t want to face him due to my anxiety but later on, I did. I’m sure...I’m VERY SURE! The second date will work out fine. I will be glorious with him! I WILL CONTROL THY SELF LIKE TODAY AND WILL NOT SWEAT LIKE A MAGICALLY PIG!
...I just...I’m curious on what he thinks. I’m curious about his thoughts of me even though he says like, “You are more gorgeous in person,” or “I can’t wait to see you next week and hold you,” I shouldn’t be worried of what he thinks but I’m curious.
I think I acted a bit like a child but this is...me. What I showed him today...this is me. There were some parts where I felt a bit guilty about and a bit umm, intense. But...these are problems that will eventually be fixed. I’m working on myself. I’m working on me.
Julie is still in the making. I...I seriously like this guy. He puts a smile on my face and even if I let out nervous laughter or giggles, I still feel at ease with this guy.
I looked him in the eyes due to comfort toward the end. I NEVER LOOKED HIM IN THE EYE THE WHOLE DAY TODAY UNTIL TONIGHT! I...I didn’t know why but I felt comfort. I relax into his touch. When he massaged my shoulders or touched the small part of my back, I wanted to moan and just FUUUCCCKKK!
I WAS GETTING TURNED ON! HE FUCKING TURNED ME ON!
This is very rare because I’m usually working to turn someone on. The guys I’ve dated turned me on but it’s like...force. They’ll work too hard and force it upon me. This guy is gentle, his touch...THERE’S SOMETHING WITH HIS TOUCH THAT JUST-JUST....FUUUCCKKK! HOW DO YOU DO IT?! HOW DID I MANAGE TO CONTROL MYSELF?!
MY BREATHING WAS GETTING HEAVY AND I WAS EXPLODING IN MY BRAIN but you know what? I controlled myself. I told myself since this guy is composed, I will be composed. I will hide that part of me that wants to jump his bone and just kiss him.
HE WAS SO POLITE TOO! He asked if he could kiss me and I just...I wanted a right moment with him. I wanted a moment where like...it’s perfect. We were both in a good position and our face slightly close and...I want him to make the first move. I don’t want to go for the kiss or make a bold move by kissing his cheek.
Even though I was close to but...I gotta wait! I want him to prep me and butter me up for the kill.
I really like this guy.
...Does he...Does he like me?