❝ well, at least we’re together. ❞ / @brrios
CHEST CONSTRAINED as tears pool and he nods. losing abuela is the HARDEST thing he’s ever gone through. the LIGHT of the barrio gone as the HOURS slip by with no sense of POWER. he feels lost, bones ache as he sits on stoop with head in hands. ‘ i dunno what i thought would happen mel, maybe i thought i could get through this, but i’m finding . . . ’ WORDS fall flat as he stops, and that SOB in throat is swallowed down. he wishes he was stronger, wishes that he KNEW what to do next. navi can’t bring himself to look at sonny, TOO many questions. should he stay ? the question’s been LOOMING and now he’s re-thinking his whole plan. maybe he doesn’t get to be SELFISH, not as if he’s ever been. he knows that sonny staying HERE is the best thing, and the RIGHT thing. ‘ maybe i should stay ’ words uttered so softly that one would doubt if they TRULY heard them.
‘ i know what i said but , abuela’s home was RIGHT up these steps ’ HEAD turns as he looks back at the HOME she had created, ‘ i can’t loose her yet , she was more than just my abuela she was mi mama ’ VOICE breaks as tears run, and a hand goes to wipe them away. ‘ why didn’t she take her medicine ? it was so simple! ’ ANGER makes it’s way as voice raises. why abuela didn’t take her medicine he TRULY will never understand.