Oct 10, 2018
ellie’s part of the s2 short story collection always really gets to me.....like fully makes me cry. the way she puts herself in danger in the hostage negotiation scene hurts me in itself but the bigger picture of it all....maaaan. the way they delve into the fact that she sees joe in everything and how she feels like she’s never going to be free of what he did, forever haunted by her own guilt. i just !! my poor bb had so much going on in her head and had nobody to confide in about any of it, all tucked away in her lil devon flat and only being able to let everything out in muffled sobs into her pillow once she knows fred is asleep. screw you joe for fucking her up this bad ://
#( * ooc. )#it's just so painful#can i just....pretend that she had more support than she did during this time#like fuck canon#in my mind her and alec kept in touch for one#and she totally bitched about working with cliff and how irritating he is#(which reminds me i die every time at 'after ten minutes she finds herself yearning for alec hardy's brooding and sulks')#fkjhsdkjfhs#anyways sorry for babbling i just have a lot of feelings#also if you haven't read this (and the rest of them obvs lol) p l e a s e do#and come cry w me