#flame 6

[yoisho]

she brought him to my house again

he introduces himself to my grandma while i hide in my room

“do you want to play music or should i” i hear her ask from behind a pair of closed doors in a soft sweet voice that i seldom hear

she never asks me that question

she just puts on whatever she likes

as if suggesting being in eachother’s company isnt a collaborative experience, but more of me being somewhere between her dog and a parasite

am i the parasite

do you live in my house

i might burn in the sun but you’re the vampire

through the pair of closed doors i hear laughter

i dont know which i’d rather hear, laughter or silence

[yoisho]

1 am:

I woke up to the light of her phone.

I see 3 unread messages.

She sits up. I ask her what’s up, you ok?

Silence. But with a look of defeat.

I ask if its Joseph.

She nods.

Wanna talk about it?

She shakes her head.

You need to be left alone?

She nods.

I get up to leave.

She says she’s sorry as her phone lights up her face.

Her eyes only glancing up at me for a second.

Her words feel hollow.

I take a couple ibuprofen and my bed is cold.