#fluffyvent

[fluffymistake3]

Its so frustrating when you know your being totally irrational and an asshole. When you can't regulate your emotions at all and you just know your in the wrong. That your ruining everyone else's night with your bs, i hate it. Damn it

[fluffymistake3]

I don't know how ppl do eyeliner 😭 struggled for an hour and gave up

[fluffymistake3]

Calorie update time ✨️

April 13th - 16h 39m fast, 2,859 calories.

(It was my mother's birthday could be an over estimation but like not 😭)

April 14th - 20h fast, 1,738 calories

April 15th - 12h fast, 1,452 calories

April 16th - 17h fast, 1,531 calories

April 17th - 6,413 steps, 16h fast, 1,017 calories

April 18th - 5,523 steps, 11h fast, 1,741 calories

April 19th - 4,046 steps, 13h fast, 748 calories

April 20th - 14,206 steps, 15h 24m fast, 1,959 calories

April 21st - 7,444 steps, 12h 29m fast, 1,510 calories

April 22nd - 1,337 steps, 19h fast, 1396 calories

April 23rd - 1,058 steps, 6h fast, 1,584 calories

April 24th - 18h 48m fast, 1,234 calories

April 25th - 5,702 steps, 13h 31m fast, 1,286 calories

April 26th - 7,346 steps, 10h fast, 1,602 calories

April 27th - 6,990 steps, 15h fast, 2,152 calories

When i checked last my weight was 178.8 but ive been eating more calories recently so idk because that was 17 days ago 😩

[fluffymistake3]

Bought myself a food scale today cause I can't stand guessing any longer 😭

Idk what my family will say about it but ill attempt to use it without raising red flags

[fluffymistake3]

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If ana, ed's, sh, or suicidal ideation triggers you please don't read my blog. I 100% support recovery, please take care of yourselves! 💙🩵💙

Hello, I'm fluffy 🫡 I'm 19. Also I always roll a nat 1 on typing so expect typos and weird wording from me. 😔

I'm redoing this cause I just felt like it was time to, the last one was over a year old, counting previous accounts 🤣

I love pokemon, farming sims like stardew valley, video games, crime TV shows, anime (some niche and some popular), music, animals, stuffed animals, and more 🫡✨️

I have adhd, autism, pcos, sh harm issues and undiagnosed depression/ana.

If i ever get termed you can find me at #fluffymistake

My tags are: #fluffymistake, #fluffyisgaming, #fluffymusicshare, #fluffyiscooking, #fluffyvent, #fluffyismakingart, #fluffyenjoyingshows, #fluffysbestfriend<3, #fluffysfriends, #fluffytagchain, #fluffy has a job

Stats under the cut:

I'm 5'4 ft tall 😔

Starting Bmi: 41.1

Current Bmi: 30.1

Hw: 232 lbs/105.2 kg

Lw before relapse: 189 lbs/85.7 kg

Starting w: 202 lbs/91.6 kg (March, 9th, 2024)

Cw: 175.4 lbs/79.56 kg (updated on 5/14/26)

Gw 1: 180 lbs/81.6 kg

Gw 2: 160 lbs/72.5 kg

Gw 3: 140 lbs/63.5 kg

Gw 4: 130 lbs/58.9 kg

Gw 5: 120 lbs/54.4 kg

Ugw: 110 lbs/49.8 kg

[fluffymistake3]

I just woke uo but my mother was pushing me to eat right away cause of my med. I was tired and rather hungry so I just grabbed a bowl and filled it. Objectively I filled it way too full

My dad comes in and the first thin out of his mouth is "so in stead of putting dinner away you decided to eat it all?" (Context we always have large amounts of leftovers after cooking)

And then he went on to say "you know how much sugar your eating right now. did you read the cans? Did you see have many calories are in those cans?"

He came back after few minutes later and said it was fine and don't worry about it if im hungry. But fuck i didn't need that tonight.

I put 3/4 of the bowl back. And ate what was left which I was full after so like its a good thing. Otherwise I would have overeaten

But i had a really hard time not crying after he said that. Its not like it was that serious idk. It doesn't sound that bad typed out imo. But idk it was kinda the tone he used? I just felt really judged

And I'm already judging myself everytime I eat. I don't need my family doing it too. He kinda does this anytime I grab a large portion of food. And I get it I do. But it still hurts. And I never finish it all.

I just have a bad habit of filling the bowls full especially on days i ate less at lunch. When half the time I can only eat half or 1/4 of it. And have to put the rest back anyways.

[fluffymistake3]

I'm only at 15 hours into my fast but my head hurts really bad so im probably going to break it so I can take pay meds 😭😭

[fluffymistake3]

I hate feeling so left out all the time :/