ouuuhh!!! yowches!! vent about my situationship im still stuck on for some god awful reason!!!!!! ouuh!!owch!!!
i hate my fucking life bro SHE HAS A CRUSH ON SOMEONE? THEY HAVE MATCHING SHIRTS???? THEY HAVE A PLAYLIST TOGETHERR???????I KNOW WHO IT IS. I HATE HER. I HATE EVERYONE FUCKKKKWHYwhyyyycant she just like me again bro. I’ve literally been hinting it to her this entire time and shes never given me an ohhh im not interested but yk weve been friends for a really long time and you still matter a lot to me!!!! I DO SO MUCH FOR YOU AND YOU BARELY TELL ME YOU CARE,IF YOUEVEN DO.well. i think she does,shr seems ro lifkeme i dont know why it makes meso upset if she DOES likeme .just. Yk not like that. imiss her a lot and her mom keeps me away fromher. Shee acts likeim gonna rape her or something.we both hateit but such as life,jjususushhhhhi want her to love me back sososoososoos badSOOOO BAD SO BAD and i know she doesnthave a say in who she loves im jsutso jelous allthe time!!!!! I hate being jealous it makes me look weak and stupid or like im trying to manipulate her.or like i haate her but T I DONT I LOVE HER AND IM JUST JEALOUS OF THE OTHERPERSON AND HER .shes liked yhat other perosn for a long time now and ive watched them get closrf. ihad. My science classwit them both! Fun! and everyday isat and stared at the fucking WALL because she WAS TOO BUSY TALKKING TO HER LITTLEBITCHOR WHATEVER. god.iliked the other person a lot before they met. shes pretty.shesnice. we evendated for a little while but it didnt lastany longer than 6 months because she hsd her eyes onMYYYYY GIRLFRIENd. MIIIIIIINE,ihate sounding like a ohhh ohh possessive alphadaddy. But i get SOOO jelous for.NO REASON EVERY TIME SHE STARTS LOOKING AT SOMEONE ELSE!!!!! IhateitIHATE IT I HAAAATE IT ithink about her alllllll day and every night.i think about how im kindacreepy. Maybe i should let up a bit on her!!!!!! But every time i try to i cant do it right and i just end up getting jealous again. iwish i didnt feel so attached to her. Shesreallt the only person whos stuck with me and hasnevr wronged me in any way. Iloveher dearly but im afraid if. She gets with the other person she’ll just leave me behind and forget about me in a year.im alwaydso scared ill lose her in the new school too. Maybe its a thing with my self esteem?self image? The other person is muuuch prettier thanme,,,,, so is she. i think she wants to be with a prettier girl.im not ugly im jusssrttttt not pretty,youknow. she always talks about how she loves pretty girls and pretty girls aresooooo great and she wants to be a lesbian with a pretty pretty girlfriend that they can be pretty with and go shopping with and kiss and cuddle i HATE IT WHEN SHE TALKS LIKE THAT.BECAUSE.IM NOT PRETTy!!!! SHE DOENST WANT OT BE WITH ME AND SHES JUST RUBBING IT IN MY FACE. we bonded because we were both sort of strange kids, very quiet kept toourselfs ykyk didntfit into the crowd right our intersts were different n stuff. And in the past few. Years shes gotten much more outgoing and left all ofthe reasons we bonded behind. Im so afraid she’ll just leavemein the dirt like she did everythinga else!!!!! I dont want to be creepy and “possessive” or jealous or nosy or weird i jsut want to spend all my time with my best friend and i feel like she dosnt loveme the same anymore i hate it somuch i ahte it i just want ot be with her. I’ve wronged her in so many ways and been so mean our entire friendship.and shes finally realizing that and leaving i feel SO hypocritical and evili dont know injust wnat to sepnd all ofmy time with her and have nobody take that time awayyyyypleaaase stua with memeeeee
