#formycassinni

[niksey]

cass and I were talking last night, tapos na open up niya sakin na there was a time pala nung nasa training siya, na nagtampo siya sakin. (i was insensitive about something)

earlier that day nainis ako sakanya kasi ang tipid ng replies niya. mali ko kasi he’s in training tapos bawal pa talaga dapat sila mag phone, pinipilit niya lang makausap ako. inaway ko pa siya :(( ito yung reason ng tampo niya.

anyway fast forward to that night, nung nakita niya daw yung chat ko sa notifications niya, balak niya daw babasahin niya nalang sa notifs and di niya na ako rereplyan. but he read it, tapos it was about me having a really bad day, then katatapos lang namin mag usap ng therapist ko nun, I told him how that went, na the past few days have been so mentally draining.

tapos sabi niya nung nabasa niya yun, he immediately set his tampo aside para i-comfort ako.

:((((((((((

minsan napapaisip talaga ako kung deserve ko ba yung the way niya ako itreat at mahalin. 

sobrang genuine at precious ng jowa ko, nakakaiyaaaakk 

[niksey]

a tag for my beautiful boyfriend.

Cass and I have been dating for a little over four months now. We became official on July 4, 2021, prior to that we’ve been talking for about a month. 

Sa apat na buwan, ilang araw palang kami nagkasama talaga, and I feel bad kasi for all those times, he had to drive for 12 hours one way just to see me. He’s stationed in Colorado and I’m still studying here in Texas. This LDR shit is hard. It takes a lot of work and effort on both sides to make the relationship work. But I am so thankful kasi he’s been so patient with me. It’s not easy but we always try to fix the problem and learn from it.

I’m glad kasi kahit pa konti-konti nakikita ko yung growth naming dalawa. I know it’s not gonna be an easy road ahead, especially that we both have our responsibilities sa families and careers namin, but I am excited to see what the future has in store for us.

At this point, I’ve surrendered this relationship to God. Iba kasi talaga when God is in the midst of a relationship, iba yung security as compared to just the both of you working on the relationship. So it’s been my prayer na as we grow spiritually as individuals, mag grow din kami together as partners.