#forvirrende

[dsasdgk]

Det irritere mig grænseløs meget at at man skal sætte sin seksualitet i en kasse.   Altså det burde ikke være sådan, det kærlighed det handler om. Vi skal jo ikke sortere os selv, det er jo mærkeligt. 

[dsasdgk]

blablabla bare en opdatering om hvordan jeg faktisk har det

Ser man bare jeg indrømmer nu at jeg ikke har det godt. Jeg har ladet som om jeg har det fint, bare for at ikke bekymre jer.. Jeg har tænkt at hvis jeg bare lægger det bag mig og faker et smil, så er alt jo godt ikke ?? Det er det bare ikke. Jeg sidder fast i et sort dybt hul og jeg kan ikke bare lige hoppe op. Mine tanker dræber mig og æder min livslyst langsomt op. Nej jeg har ikke tænkt mig at dræbe mig selv, for jeg vil bare gerne have det rart og sjovt. Jeg skader heller ikke mig selv mere (eller prøver at lade vær) og det går fint. Hver dag diskutere jeg med mig selv om jeg skal springe maden over.  Men ja sådan har jeg det 

[dsasdgk]

Jeg ved det jeg ville blive ked af det hvis han er sammen med en anden pige, men ved også, at jeg bliver irriteret hvis vi er sammen igen  men har også bare lyst til at han er min. 

[dsasdgk]

Tanker#1

Synes det er mærkeligt at folk synes det er irriterende når folk har meget selvtillid og de så os synes det er træls når folk ikke har nogen selvtillid

[queenkinnanna]

Weird dream!

I just had this super weird dream.. It's kind of a tiny bit Ylvis related, but mostly not, so I'll post it here... And it's so so so weird! Here it it:

Me and Elin was going to all this Ylvis conserts. Bård were a bit upset/ iritated at me, even tho we never even spoke to eachother... -.-  Other people was also starting to be iritated at me and Elin too, accusing us for things we didn't do... After every consert we went too, I always was to late to catch my bus/ train back o_0  After one of the conserts I started talking to this man and woman. This man which I guessed to be like 35, told me he was 53.. and said that I looked 35, but I would have looked younger if I had a bit of a sparkle left in my eyes..... After this I rented a movie. When i delivered it back, someone stole it before the man who worked there, whom looked like quasimodo, found it. Then he got super angry and started fighting other crippled people, and they turned into having super powers and fighting in this train that appared from nowhere. And the movie I had rented turned into being magical in som way... It was all so confusing, and I woke up in the middle of the fighting... o_0

Wow..... THAT was a weird and really unpleasant dream... :S