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[gussiemiller]

#September11 #NeverForget We will remember & remain vigilant. #fosterhope #workforpeace (at World Trade Center)

[lelecox10]

It's been a while....

Hey everyone! I hope you have all been doing well! I haven't blogged in awhile because we have ALL been sick. I was down with the flu at the same time the youngest had an ear ache...then he got the stomach virus. Now his sister is running fever and has the sniffles. Perks of having a big family. 

Today a lot of things have been on my mind. The biggest thing is just how temporary everything in life is, including the people in your life. When you stop and look back how many people have walked in and out of your life? ALOT! Today I was on Facebook and the "people you may know" section caught my eye because someone I used to be roommates with was on there, and I found myself looking at their Facebook to see what they had been up to since I last talked to them. 

Then that made me think of my two little cuties that are living with me right now. There is no guarantee they will be with us forever, in fact there is a big chance they won't be. So often people ask how I do it, but when you stop and think about how many people have walked into and out of your life it make since. No, I don't want to see them leave, just like I never wanted to not be friends with that person anymore, but it happened and at first is SUCKED, but the wound healed and I moved on. 

If/WHEN these little cuties leave us, it will be the hardest day of my life. It will suck, I WILL cry, my heart will hurt. I will know that these kids will ALWAYS remember me and our family. They will remember our family movie nights when all 5 of us piled up on the couch to watch a movie together. They will remember going to the park as a family and playing tag. They will remember the sense of family they had with us. They will remember all the extended family they gained with us. But most of all, they will remember the LOVE they received.  We may not be allowed to keep contact with them if they leave us, but we will never forget them. They will always be a part of our family, and in our hearts. 

We will have the family pictures with them hanging in our house. They may leave but they will never be forgotten. I know even the short amount of time they have been with us, that the bond we have made with each of them will never be forgotten. 

I think what will hurt the most, is Levi having to tell his new brother and sister bye. He has grown to love them, though he understands that they will leave one day, it will still hurt. 

Will I let that hurt stop me from loving more children...NO ABSOLUTELY NOT! Because God has called my family to do this. This is his plan for us, so he will see us through the pain. He will heal us so that we can love again. 

Until next time...