#foxytalking

[foxytoxxic]

¿ ¦ foxy ¦ 24 ¦ she / her ¦ ?

― newest addition - more of that ― biases - bangchan & hyunjin ― asks open for chats | requests closed

― masterlist

― divider by @uzmacchiato

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//Alright!! Drafts are done, asks are answered, and this fox is going to hop off for now! I’ll see y’all again soon!

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// @karikitdemonrp I keep wanting to write Kairi instead of Kari because I got into Kingdom Hearts during my hiatus XD

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// So my laptop keyboard is p much dead and I need to have it replaced, which means I will be without my laptop for a week or so. Unfortunately our desktop does not like tumbl, so I can't log on for that entire week. I'll hop off soon, and after that I won't be back until the 19th at the earliest. See y’all when I'm back!

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// sorry for taking a while on starters. I'll try to get them out soon, but my internet and health and school are not cooperating. I have a test next thursday so I think I can get the starters out a week from now at the latest

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// I would send the ★ to all of you who reblogged the “send a ★ if you like my blog” thing but I would hit my ask limit in no time so I'm leaving it here instead.

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// finally got myself a Discord. if you want to add me, IM me your Discord and I'll add you.

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// Yesterday I posted some pretty negative stuff. I was feeling horrible at the time, my mind was pretty much fucked up, and normally I don't vent but I have had several people, including my therapist, tell me that I needed to vent more and stop bottling it all up inside, so I did.

I didn't expect it to cause so much backlash.

When I made that post, I was thinking about people like me, who are never really part of the group. I didn't stop to think how people who are in the group would respond to it. I didn't realize that people might feel guilty for receiving a positivity post or tag, like it's their fault people are giving them love.

I did realize after the fact that it sounded like I was upset about the positivity blog existing, and I attempted to correct that in a reblog (which is what I linked above). I love positivity, I just couldn't handle seeing all those posts on my dash at the time.

After I posted my first post, the mun of @ygo-positivityproject contacted me over IM to discuss the post. They gave me some advice on dealing with the situation, including explaining how to make a post private (I honestly had no idea that was possible, shows how much I know about this blue void of a website) for future vent posts. We discussed the situation and I left the conversation feeling like I know how to deal with something like this a little better.

Here is the explanation I gave them about the reasons I made my negative post, copied directly from my IMs:

“I've been having the mental health issues I mentioned for a long time, almost my entire life, and I started therapy earlier this year. The problems are really fresh in my mind because I've been talking about them and confronting them once every two weeks for the past few months, and I have to admit your blog first appeared on my dash at the wrong moment, when I was in an extremely bad mental situation, and the first few posts on your blog didn't help much, for the reasons I mentioned in the post.

“I have a few thread partners I talk to a lot over IMs and in the tags on our threads and I often talk in the tags on my threads even if I don't talk with my thread partner over IMs, and I'm really happy to have those partners who are always willing to talk with me in the tags and in IMs.

“The problem is not that I have nobody to talk to, the problem is that those issues I talked about in my post are rooted so deeply in my brain and it's really hard to think of myself as part of the group, especially since I'm in a different timezone (I live in Europe, GMT+1) and a lot of threads and shenanigans that result in back-and-forth dash commentary happen when I'm asleep. It sucks, but I'm trying to learn to ignore that annoying little voice in my brain that tells me I'm not good enough. It's a process that I started less than a year ago to counter a process that has been going on for my entire life, so I'm only just getting started and the first step is the most painful.

“I don't like venting because that little voice in my brain tells me other people can't help me and I shouldn't bother, but that's exactly why I made that post. It had been bothering me pretty much since I saw your blog promo appear on my dash for the first time and I needed to get it out because it was eating at me and making it difficult for me to be online because every time I went through my dash I saw one of your posts and it hurt me every time. Now that it's out of my system, I can hopefully learn to see your posts for what they are.

I know that all of this is no excuse, and I'm sorry for any controversy or backlash I caused with my vent post. I don't expect everyone to accept this explanation. I'm only leaving it here so you will be able to understand why I feel this way.

Again, I'm really sorry for any controversy or backlash I caused. In hindsight, I really should’ve made the vent a private post, and I probably would’ve done that if I knew how. The damage has now been done, I can't undo it, but hopefully this fixes it at least a little.