#fr0gdiary

[h1norei]

It’s so strange to be back in this space after years. So much has happened. I have grown and changed so much since but I wanted to come back here because during the many years I spent my time exploring tumblr and my own creative boundaries, I felt the most like myself and right now I just don’t know where I stand or who I am and so I’m backing up slowly trying to touch the things that once meant so much to me. Well, here is my final journey to get to who I’m supposed to be.

[h1norei]

There were so many things I wanted to share with you This is the first time that I didn't have to be in love with the person to experience such intense emotions The universe is cruel And I am nothing more than at its disposal There are simply no words for these feelings this time I'm not sure what will be left of me With each ending, I'm flooded with memories and emotions of the past How hopeless life can be How little you can do to change things I just can't bring myself to love anymore Each time it worsens, will I end up nothing? Heartbreak is almost a form of art on its own And yet he can't comfort this pain away. Even if he is the one I love the most. Is it because it's time to let him go too?

[h1norei]

Why do I feel like my soul is just tired and dying and I just don't want to drag anyone down with me I hate this so fucking much

[h1norei]

Truth be told I am loving all these velvet chokers but I'd rather be choked to death in velvet lol

[h1norei]

I'm stuck in this mood where I have no motivation and I just did some shop therapy but there's so much I wanna buy and I'm gonna ask my dad for money tomorrow lol to redo my wardrobe for the fall because I haven't in forever But anyway I basically bought the whole fall edit for colourpop and some chokers, I'm buying so much lol and it's not enough I wanna get back into working out for good and actually doing something about my shitty lazy moods I haven't had the energy to talk to anyone at all I'm so annoyed and mad at myself I didn't attend classes this week bc I couldn't find it in myself to get up I just don't know what to do anymore I don't wanna give up But I'm having a hard time kicking myself into motion and I absolutely despise this I need motivation I feel like I'm losing myself completely

[h1norei]

I think im gonna start a study side blog, I have goals that I need to accomplish and if social media is gonna help at all instead of distracting me then i think this is it lol

[h1norei]

Min Yoongi

I feel like he just pushed into the world I've been trying to escape from for forever but instead of leaving me behind and saving himself he grabbed me by the hands and told me we could fall together. I'm hooked and I'll adore Min Yoongi forever. But he already knows that.

[h1norei]

I’m so tired of everything

i can’t make it stop.

All I have ever wanted was to die. 

For once. to be at peace. my heart weighs so heavy and I can’t carry it anymore. I have nothing. I’m grateful for everyone but I’m s exhausted I just want to stop. When will this heart stop? It hurts to breathe. 

I’m trying. I really am. I’m running out of light.