#frankentoe

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and i’m finally starting to see toenail!!! it’s jagged at the edges and the nail bed is 100% damaged permanently so it probably won’t fully grow back (from what i can see... the little bit of nail that’s growing back looks dark and rotten) but at least it’s not growing straight up

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“you need to take it easy, it was a very traumatic injury”

it’s a fucking toe

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podiatrist says my toe is looking really good! all the stitches finally come off next week too which is great + he says i can start wearing actual shoes (but just athletic sneakers)

we still don’t know about how the toenail is gonna come in bc the nail bed was p badly damaged (like he said it could even grow straight up? which would be a pain to maintain)

i think he’s really amused bc i’m so impatient to walk... he was saying how a typical fracture would be been simple and healed fully by now but since i also had bad tissue damage our problem now is probably making sure the wound heals nicely too

he says that i can start walking on my full foot but it’s weird... it’s like i forgot how to walk normally? i’m still keeping most of my weight on my right and the way i’ve been walking puts basically no weight at all on my forefoot... so idk why but now my knee + left hip is always achy 

and i’m trying to practice walking normally but every time i try to roll onto my forefoot the entire area hurts and i’m not sure it’s bc i shouldn’t be walking like that too soon or bc my body just isn’t used to the weight in that area and will get used to it?

which is weird bc i’ve only been like this for a little over a month now

it’s like learning how to walk again except now all the machinery is achy and creaky

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it feels like toenail pain but it’s weird because i have no toenail

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it feels like my toe is like........... moving and twitching under the gauze and it feels really pinchy and bizarre

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Ok... It freakin hurts a lot

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today was probably the most painful of all the follow ups i’ve had so far bc we needed to put more stitches in and i don’t think the anesthetic worked very well

like the problem flap of skin had to be pulled in over and restitched, plus he was trying to save the nail bed as well as possible so yeah... it hurt a lot lmao

but it’s slowly starting to look more like a toe (kinda) which is great

a really raw, pink, nail-less toe

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I can put my entire foot flat on the ground without having it hurt too much!