#freddy-e

[noobtasaibot]

You stay on my mind, handsome. Please keep your eye on Reuben. Like anybody needs to remind you lol.

P.s. distance doesn't make the heart grow fonder. One year later and I don't miss you any less.

[youtube-personalities]

Gifs pertaining to Freddy E.

I can't do them. I just.... I can't.

I tried watching one of his videos right now & I can't stop crying.

I'll make a few of them but it's just so freaking sad.

I watched a video he posted a year ago talking about him being alone &.......... Lord.

[noobtasaibot]

I thought I was gonna be ok today, I really did. Because up until now, I suppose I've just been putting this in the back of my mind, and denying it, and pretending like it never happened.

But then I walked in today, and I saw your casket. And it hit me like a fucking train.

[noobtasaibot]

My mind is buzzing from so much hate right now. That post I made in response to Honey Cocaine's deleted tweets and shit, was raw, and emotional, and I made it around 24 hours after I just lost a friend. A fucking friend, ok not my favorite youtube personality, not some dude I would drool over from hundreds of miles away through a screen, but a friend and a classmate and I stated that in the post that I actually knew Fred.

And it blows my mind that some of you fuckbitches would take my words and use them as your own to get some followers, and likes, and reblogs. It's been happening on Tumblr and happening on Facebook and I just want you to know that you are absolutely pathetic and I hope to God that you find the attention you are so clearly and desperately deprived of.

[noobtasaibot]

The only thing that Honey Cocaine's interview did for me was reassure me that I am gonna deck her in the mouth the first chance I get (hopefully she tries to come to town for the funeral) and that she has no idea what the fuck she's doing or saying half the time.

Oh, and you were just friends? Really? For real? It's one thing to call out these so called "journalists" for claiming that you were his ex-girlfriend, or say that you didn't wanna be with him, or anything along those lines, but to front for the camera and say that you were never more than friends? Really, bitch?

are

you

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[noobtasaibot]

Ok also the 'Katherine' that Freddy sent a final shoutout to is his sister. NOT Honey Cocaine. Gotdamn. If you didn't know Freddy in person, didn't know him well enough to know that, don't know something that basic about Honey Cocaine, sit the fuck down. Damn you can take a tweet and sit here making posts about what you think happened, letting your ignorance run rampant all over the internet but you can't Google a ho first? Irrelevant ass extras.

[noobtasaibot]

And for Sochitta Sal.

I think people are misunderstanding where some of us who actually knew Freddy are coming from in all of this involving Honey bitchass Cocaine. We’re not just speculating fans (or haters) or bystanders or whatever, our friend, our brother, committed suicide. Plain and simple. Our hate does not stem from the theory that Honey pushed him to it; she obviously stated that at this point, she just wanted to be his friend, or maybe not even that (and then turned right around and said she loved him and they were homies 5ever). Nobody expects her to HAVE to be with Freddy. And I personally don’t believe for one second that Freddy took his own life over her stupid ass. I think that she could very well have been the straw that broke the camel’s back, but I don’t blame her for what Freddy did. What hundreds of us are pissed about is that she was blatantly cold and disrespectful, tweeting bullshit about Freddy hours after his death and then realizing how stupid she was being, deleting the tweets, and then pretending like she was heartbroken. Claiming, “Bonne and fucking Clyde” and saying that she loved him. Fuck outta here.

Bitch you think because you delete tweets you can wipe the slate clean? All of Seattle wants your head.

Fuck you, fuck what you're about, fuck your whole life. How dare you take a shit on Fred's memory like this? You got lucky with a small graze to the arm from that bullet, but I can aim real well with these hands I promise you that. You will be flossing your own lips out from between your braces. So to reiterate. I don't think that Honey made him do anything. I don't blame her for Freddy's actions. I don't think Freddy took his life solely over her. But this is bullshit and you will get what's coming to you, Sochitta.

[noobtasaibot]

For Freddy.

I'm still in an angry, devastated daze. And as much as I wish you hadn't done this to yourself, it gives me great comfort to know that your heart just might be less heavy now and that you have eased your suffering. You had so much going for you, Freddy. I wish you would've have left just a little more insight for those of us who care about you, so we could understand you, instead of spending your last words on a stupid girl. You and Ruben were the only classmates of mine that gave me the time of day in freshmen year. All I can remember is that you were constantly with your girlfriend, the little Mexican girl, who I never believed deserved you. You were always holding her hand, fighting off other bitches with sticks, and calling her your fiancée. You gave me tons of advice about school and love. You gave me hope that maybe someday I could find a gentleman like you; A strong, loving prince charming who wasn't afraid to give everything he had, every little bit of him, to the woman he loved. You were such a beautiful person in every way, and I hate that you were so good at hiding your demons from all of us. Anyway. I've missed you for a long time, pretty much since you graduated. But you know that I've always supported your endeavors. I'm so glad that I got to watch you shoot to national, even global popularity with JerkTV, and up until yesterday I was an avid supporter of your relationship with Sochitta. I never saw this coming. And I'm glad to have gotten to run into you one last time. I'll be seeing you soon at the funeral, my friend. Rest easy. You can relax now. You are loved. You are missed. You will never be forgotten by the 206/253. Aaaaaand1.