#frenrey angst

[animatorfun]

for the art requests; frenrey angst maybe ? spare frenrey angst <:3 ? /nf they make me so sick i need to throw them at the wall /pos

Hi hey hello heres this big ass AU angst sketch page ive been working on for like over a month

Aaand another addition to the idea I did more recently

Uhhh a basic rundown of the au/story,, its not very original xp incoming rambles ↓

After the game ends, Gordon separates the AIs from the game with the exception of Benrey. He doesn’t know if Benrey is alive and quite frankly he doesn’t want to know. Benrey along with whats left of the games code gets stuck onto a hard-drive and locked in a drawer aaaand Gordon tries not to think about it too much. But when people who were part of a group leave, their absence is usually felt. That’s also the case here with Benrey. Aaaaand Gordon gets to thinking. He’s had time to reflect on his actions during the game- some he regrets, some he doesn’t. He doesn’t forgive Benrey by any means, but his feelings about the whole situation aren't black and white either. Soooo um. From there the idea gets fuzzy because like. It was based on an animatic I've been procrastinating on where Gordon just. Imagines going back into the game and finding Benrey in Xen and just. Trying to imagine what he'd say if he was still alive. It's a whole thing. No happy ending regardless of whether or not Gordon actually GOES to Xen or imagines it- Benrey doesn't get to leave the game with everyone else. Gordon still feels like shit. No proper closure, no nothing. Why would there be?

Idk man as much as I love the idea of Gordon and Benrey forgiving eachother and coming to terms with their mutual misunderstandings,, I don't mind the idea of that..not.. fixing things between them. It's more of a "we could have been friends under better circumstances" situation but the current situation isn't salvageable. They know what went wrong and they know what they Could have done, but what's done is done yk?

[realbluspy]

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[realbluspy]

"do you think he'll ever wake up? that he'll ever come back online?

i miss him. every time i think of him, it hurts me worse than i could ever do to myself. i just want him to come back. at least give me the proper closure that i need instead of just... leaving.

i know. i'm asking for too much. i got the closure i deserved when he 'killed' me. but it'd be nice to hear a proper goodbye from someone. at least from *him.*

will he come back? please, just- just give me a straight answer for once. don't use the black mesa sweet-voice. don't look around as though in thought. give me your straight, genuine answer.

...

of course you'd just stand there and stare

i guess that's my answer.

benrey out 3.0."