Now this is sort of an odd post but with all these school shootings and what not I really have been thinking that, even with my hyperempathy I can’t fathom the mindset these kind of people are in.
Like it boggles my mind and I can’t even process it. Even thinking about a hypothetical scenario where I have to kill someone,even if its just a random person I don’t know it just hurts me in my soul to think about.
How do people so readily take someone’s life? I understand if its self defense but for you to actively go out and kill people for the sake of it or due to your own internal issues or whatever, how does that work?
Like if I killed a bird on accident I’d feel horrible about it. A life is a life and like the mindset that it’s yours to take regardless of what logic you use is just disgusting to me, like absolutely disgusting.
Even as a Christian I don’t believe in the fires of hell, I feel like hell is eternal isolation and frankly I think thats too good for these kinds of people.
I’ve tried to like empathize or put myself in the shoes of a mass murderer and it made me break down and cry because to even think it tears at my soul, i feel unclean even hypothesizing it.
I wish people were just kind, like I wish this wasn’t such a big thing to ask for. I’m not asking for communism, I’m not asking for special treatment of individuals. All that statement entails is be kind for kindness sake.
It’s just, I know I should be desensitized to this and this doesn’t happen in my own country at all because I live in a country with some of the lowest murder rate but sometimes seeing the news from the US and Europe and so forth just completely breaks me.
