In Your Presence/In Your Absence
In your presence,
I’d have been loved.
In your absence,
I learned to earn love.
In your presence,
I’d have found my haven.
In your absence,
I yearned for my hiraeth.
In your presence,
I’d have been a child.
In your absence,
I grew up beyond my age.
In your presence,
I’d have had a shoulder to cry on.
In your absence,
I learned to wipe my tears.
In your presence,
I’d have learned not to hurt others.
In your absence,
I learned to heal myself.
In your presence,
I’d have known how to trust.
In your absence,
I embrace trauma.
In your presence,
I’d have forgotten my sorrows.
In your absence,
I don’t remember what happiness feels like.
In your presence,
I’d have built myself.
In your absence,
I collect pieces of my broken self.
In your presence,
I’d have been your princess.
In your absence,
I transformed into a warrior.
In your presence,
you’d have been my armour.
In your absence,
you are my weapon.
In your presence,
I’d have feared pain.
In your absence,
pain became my peace.
In your presence,
I’d have had hands to hold me up.
In your absence,
I emerged as a phoenix—
I became my own salvation.
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