#frostwhispers

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Whispers of Frost: A Majestic Unicorn's Winter Odyssey

In the enchanting realm of Eldoria, where magic danced in the frosty air, there lived a majestic unicorn named Seraphina. Her coat, as white as freshly fallen snow, glistened under the ethereal moonlight. Seraphina, the guardian of winter dreams, embarked on a magical odyssey through the snow-laden forests and icy meadows.

As she trotted gracefully through the crystalline landscapes, delicate snowflakes danced around her, forming a sparkling trail of dreams. Seraphina's hooves left imprints on the snow, creating a symphony of whispers that echoed through the enchanted woods. The winter spirits, captivated by her presence, adorned her mane with shimmering frost crystals that glowed like the northern lights.

In her journey, Seraphina encountered mystical creatures that only emerged during the winter solstice. The wise snow owls shared ancient tales of forgotten kingdoms buried beneath blankets of snow, and the elusive ice sprites gifted her with a magical frost amulet, unlocking hidden powers within her.

As the winter days unfolded, Seraphina discovered a secret portal to the Celestial Frost Haven, a celestial realm where the purest essence of winter resided. There, she met the Frost Queen, who entrusted her with the responsibility of safeguarding the delicate balance between magic and nature during the winter season.

Seraphina's journey became a mesmerizing tapestry of fantasy and wonder, weaving tales of bravery, friendship, and the enduring magic of winter. With each step, she left behind a trail of frozen wonderlands, transforming the ordinary into extraordinary.

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Ravenous

His eyes show the world which that I've never seen before. A world of infinite knowledge. I can see that through his life he's lived in such a way where he's grown hungry. Hungry for what's out there, for the things he doesn't know. He yearns to have it all. Pushing forward, unrelenting. Consuming everything in his path. Ravenous. Even when others have had their fill, he remains unsatisfied. In this world where there are things his mind alone remains strangers to, he feasts. And God, Oh God. I hope I am consumed.

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Closure

This is a long post. You may skip it if you would like. 

Whenever I’m alone I realize how much I still think about you.

You’re like a drug; one that I’ve been trying to rid myself of but the addiction is too strong.

This isn’t meant to be beautiful. Being a drug isn’t a good thing.

You’re toxic.

You’ve destroyed parts of my mind as well as my life.

There are multiple things I simply cannot do because it brings feelings for you that are so powerful and raw that I feel like vomiting.

You were my world.

And now you’re nothing.

Ripped away violently, flesh from bone.

God I loved you so much.

I would’ve done anything for you.

You, my new family, my only family.

It took me so long just even consider getting close to someone else.

If it weren’t for my real sister, who helped me out during this time of darkness that your abandonment left me in, I would not be here at all.

If it weren’t for my friend, who I now call best friend, I’d still feel alone.

If it weren’t for my wonderful boyfriend, I would still consider myself insane.

Which you let me believe I was, for the longest time.

Without him, I’d still be working my horrible job, living with my horrible mother, and having a horrible outlook on life.

It wasn’t fair on him, you know.

You left me in such a dissociative state that when my boyfriend and I first met that I cringe as to our first months of communications.

It wasn’t me.

I was too hurt.

Too blunt.

Too apathetic.

And I think that hurt him a lot.

It wasn’t until months afterwards did he thaw me out.

God, what would I have done if he weren’t there?

Yet I feel so guilty because I had treated him so poorly.

All because all I could think about was you.

How much I loathed you at the time.

If I wasn’t loathing you, I was missing you.

If I wasn’t missing you, I was consumed with the feeling of guilt.

Was I not good enough for you?

If I wasn’t feeling any of these; I was numb.

So numb I would go days without eating or contacting anyone.

I’d even avoid my boyfriend and my family just because why bother?

I couldn’t do it.

What was the point; you weren’t there.

God it pisses me off when I think about it now.

You did not deserve to be my friend.

You, a spoiled young child who got everything they ever wanted simply by asking for it.

You, who does not even work for what they have.

You don’t pay for your own school, your own apartment, your own car.

I can’t be friends with people like you anymore. Nothing to do with jealousy, even though there was a time when I was just a bit.

I can’t be friends with people like you anymore because you don’t know anything. You don’t know how hard life can be. You don’t know what it’s like to have to do the hard things just to survive. You don’t know the feeling you get after you’ve worked for something for so long and you finally get it.

You’re still a child.

And I have more important things to do than play around with you.

I still think of you. A lot more than I should. I wish I could erase you from my mind. Every time I tell a joke that I just know instinctively would be a joke you’d laugh at, I get sad. And then angry. Very quickly.

If I would’ve known you’d do this to me in the slightest

I’d probably do it again.

The past me was so trusting. So blind. So forgiving.

However, because I cannot erase you from my brain, I know not to accept you back into my life again. Because even though I loved you,

And even when I break down when I’m by myself I think I still do sometimes,

I will never have you close to me again.

The wound you’ve left me has finally stopped bleeding.

But the scar that remains reminds me that I cannot survive a second hit.

You’ve left half of me torn, ripped apart, broken.

The people around me picked me back up.

They loved me when I hated everything.

They loved me even though I never even asked for it.

They see these scars you’ve given me and call me beautiful,

Even though for the longest time I couldn’t believe how ugly they were.

These people

I love them more than anything now.

And yes, more than I’ve ever loved anyone. And yes, that’s so dangerous.

They are my stitches.

If they’re to be ripped from me like how you ripped yourself from me, I don’t think I’ll make it.

But I can’t help it.

I have to believe that there are some people who are kind, loving, and won’t hurt people like how you hurt people.

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It's only $595 for all the things I would need with my new room at my apartment (bed, dresser, bed frame) and I added the cost of a cheap TV because why not. I figured the details and it would only take an extra 8 shifts to make that work. This is so exciting I'm so happy that I finally. Finally. Have a shot of being on my own and being able to pay my bills AND save up for extra things the concept is still wild

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Spent the last 2.5 hours in bathwater. I'm freezing and I feel pretty numb but I didn't hurt myself. It was very hard not to but I'm still here. Thank you Brenda for messaging me when I really needed to be messaged

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My mom's ancient car just died and can't be fixed and I can feel it now that she's gonna be pissed that everyone in this house now has a car except for her. Ooooooh man I feel the verbal abuse coming

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Smiling like an idiot because waking up in his arms is the best thing ever I wish I could tell myself from a year ago that this is all possible. Achievable. Worth it. Thank you so much

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So I'm going to school again starting May 25th. I should be excited but I'm more stressed out than anything. So much is going to happen within the next few months it's making me feel nauseous