#frozensai

[blazingsai]

Some Randoms I Took Over The Last Couple Of Days

Some WIP stuff here. In order of appearance from top left to bottom right:

Camilwe the Innocent Vampire [WIP] (Formerly known as Innocent Vampire)

Frozensai

Hagraven/Breton Halfling [WIPish]

Celeste (Varulae) the Blue Devil of the Empire (Formerly known as Assassin)

Vlypyine the Ultimate Daedra

I think @cakesicles might remember 1 and 4, while most others would remember 2 the most. 

[blazingsai]

A Failed Attempt to Return to Normalcy

Backstory:

Perfection. Ever since she was created that word, that concept, had been at the forefront of her mind and was what she strove for. However, time after time Frozensai was plagued with failure in every endeavor. When she fell to Lydete, it didn’t take long for The Creator [formerly known as @blazingsai, it’s still me but it’s easier to just have one entity named “blazingsai”] to retrieve and heal her. However that loss broke something within her and she did not awaken until a month ago (a month before chapter 14 of Red Witch). 

When she finally woke up, although The Creator greeted her happily and didn’t see her as a failure, that sense of perfection that she’d always had left her. Without it, she didn’t know what to do or how to carry herself. She couldn’t see herself as @blazingsai’s number one agent/avatar (a position that she highly valued) and without that… she realized that she didn’t have a sense of who she was anymore. 

So even though knowing that it would leave @blazingsai more vulnerable if Lydete were to attack, Frozensai asked for and was granted some time to travel Skyrim in order to find herself…

After returning two months later, Frozensai came to find her predecessor’s (Blazingsai) flaws to be more palatable and... appealing. She began to shadow her counterpart everywhere, forgetting about her actual duties in the process as Blazingsai introduced her to the world without “perfection tinted lenses.”

As she came to get closer to Blazingsai, Frozensai began to develop her own hobbies, something that she previously had no need of when she believed herself to be perfection incarnate. Alongside amassing a secret stuffed animal collection, Lydete and Blazingsai’s (both of whom have since stopped doing this) habit of wearing various eccentric outfits rubbed off on Frozensai and she began to do so herself when she was away from both Blazingsai and The Creator.

It was while strolling around Solitude while wearing one of these outfits that Frozensai was embraced from behind by some stranger. Turning herself around, she saw it to be Blazingsai. Although relieved that it was someone she knew and not some stranger trying to get hansy, Frozensai was furious that Blazingsai had startled her so and was about to give her a piece of her mind... When Blazingsai suddenly kissed her!

Unable to comprehend what was happening, Frozensai pushed Blazingsai off of her and to the ground. With a smirk, Blazingsai asked “how was it,” hoping that his prank of hers would make Frozensai go back to her usual self (even if momentarily) at the expense of being chewed out. Instead, Frozensai didn’t say a word as a wave of emotions that she had never felt before began to flood her senses, mainly embarrassment. 

Although she wanted an answer as to why Blazingsai had kissed her, it was all Frozensai couldn’t bear to look at her for a second longer and so she ran off, leaving both of them with more questions than answers...

[blazingsai]

And Here We Are: 06b Frozensai

New Thing I’m doing. Kind of like Tweaking the Cast except that I’m not going to really be tweaking anything (for the most part). Rather, it’s just going to be a showcase of my characters using my new ENB.

A quick interjection due to a request.

Perfection. Ever since she was created that word, that concept, had been at the forefront of her mind and was what she strove for. However, time after time Frozensai was plagued with failure in every endeavor. When she fell to Lydete, it didn't take long for @blazingsai to retrieve and heal here, however that loss broke something within her and she did not awaken until a month ago (a month before chapter 14 of Red Witch). When she finally awakened, although @blazingsai greeted her happily and didn't see her as a failure, that sense of perfection that she'd always had left her.

Without it, she didn't know what to do or how to carry herself. She couldn't see herself as @blazingsai's number one avatar (a position that she highly valued) and without that... she realized that she didn't have a sense of who she was anymore. So even though knowing that it would leave @blazingsai more vulnerable if Lydete were to attack, Frozensai asked for and was granted some time to travel Skyrim in order to find herself...

@cartixio #AimToPlease

[blazingsai]

-rolls some dice- hmm 5,9, 11, 37,49 for lets say.... Xyndra, Liri, Frozensai

05. Are they sexually confident or more of the shy type?

Xyndra: She thinks she looks cute, but isn’t one to straight up flaunt her body or anything...

Liri: Well she’s not the shy type XD 

Frozensai: She believes that she is perfect, and no one can change her mind about that (except @blazingsai this is canon)

09. Do they have a favorite season? What about a favorite holiday?

Xyndra: Heart’s Day. In her time she may have never been approached by anyone on this day, but she absolutely loved what the day symbolized.

Liri: She never paid heed to many of the Holidays, but the one she’s always had the most good memories about was New Life Festival.

Frozensai: The only day that matters to Frozensai is the day she was born. All the other days simply blend together for her.

11. What is something that would make your character fly into a rage?

Xyndra: Xyndra’s not inclined to rage. She was an introvert of sorts in her time, and here in Skyrim she’s too blown away by everything to get mad at anything.

Liri: Under zero circumstances are you to attack Innis (her sister), because if she finds out it was you, she’ll hunt you down like a madman.

Frozensai: Talk shit about @blazingsai or bring up Blazingsai in a positive light (worst off, if you say that Blazingsai is better than her at ANYTHING).

37. What are some of your character’s pet peeves? What are some things that annoy them or disgust them?

Xyndra: Don’t talk shit about history or her love for history. Again, she won’t fly into a rage, but she’ll give you a mean look.

Liri: Lecherous looks and behavior, forcibly prying into her past without her consent, vampires. 

Frozensai: Blazingsai and things she considers to be imperfect.

49. What is something that your character has nightmares about? Are these frequent? Do they heavily affect your character’s mood?

Xyndra: She’s had nightmares about all of this, her going back into the past, being but a dream and that the device that sent her here simply knocked her into a coma in her own time. 

Liri: Her nightmare is that she’d never left her Clan, they’ve severed her connection to her magicka pool, and she has to watch over and over as the swines in her Clan take turns with Innis as she herself is going through the same ordeal.

Frozensai: To quote Frozensai, “Only imperfect beings have nightmares. Don’t talk about such drivel to me.”

[blazingsai]

The Happening (1)

Target Sighted (1)

NEXT

MEGA RANT: TLDR; Prisoner(?) [Lydete] hates me and wants me dead. Period.

Okay, I haven’t been to sleep for a while, and I know no one’s gonna read this so… fuck it. Let’s try and doe this! XD

If any of you know me from Loverslab and have been following my posts, you may know some of this. Anyway, as you all know I’ve got a bunch of characters. In fact I have too many. Most of them don’t know about me (canonically in the universe I’m shaping for my Skyrim), however there are a few that do. The ones that do include: Niyleen, Lucari, Sai, Madina, Ruby, Blazingsai, Trineiya, Frozensai, Kaz, Zamira, Corea, Niyata (who was supposed to have her own story that was supposed to feature various followers that people had created) and Dagger; Aelfna used to know but since I modified her backstory…  she doesn’t. :\

Now then here’s the issue. When out of canon, most of my characters like me (mainly because I don’t bother them all that much). However, of those that know me within the canon:

1. Only Blazingsai, Frozensai, Kaz, Niyata, and Corea like me.

2. Niyleen, Lucari, and Zamira are neutral

Niyleen will only bother with me if there’s money involved

Lucari will only bother with me if there’s nudes of Niyleen involved

Zamira will only bother with me if I tip her well and let her sing… and buy skooma from her when she has it -_-

3. The rest of them without a doubt hate me.

Trineiya and Dagger hate me because they can see that I’m using them (and everyone else) like puppets and putting them out there for the world to see without permission

Sai (my first personification, avatar, representation, whatever you want to call it) hates me because she found out that not only was I using her like a doll, but that her entire life up to that point was a lie and had been fabricated; within the canon because, as you all know, none of these characters are real people and thus they ALL have made up lives, but Sai’s was made up with that made up world (hope that makes sense).

Madina hates me because Sai hates me, and she’ll stop at nothing to make sure I don’t cause harm to Sai again.

This is where the Prisoner (Lydete) comes into play.

I decided to make a set with a newly formed character a WHILE ago; way before probably half of the characters I tweaked were a thing. It was kinda NSFW and featured (in order): imprisonment, rape (via skeever, spider, draugr, demonic child looking thing, dog, riekling), licking (via dog, elf, and horker), and 4P (with draugr) (not my normal kind of content on either site). She was a nameless character with no background, no purpose, just to serve as a short but fleeting bit of eye candy for my loverslab peeps. She was essentially a doll and I literally was playing dress up with her during each scene (like I’m doing still...).

When I got to the spider stuff I realized… I didn’t want to do this anymore (that specific set). But at the same time, I didn’t want to just throw away this character. That’s when I got the idea of having a character represent all of the characters, ideas, and whatnot that I am either simply not using, were turned into one offs or have scraped. This is how Lydete was formed. To understand why she hates me, you’d have to understand that I’ve written a lot for Skyrim, other games, and some personal stuff as well. I’ve started writing numerous stories, from when I was in the 6th grade in 2001 to now and have tossed so many of them or put them on ‘hiatus.’ I’ve been writing stuff for 15 years. That’s 15 years’ worth of untold stories, forgotten characters, unwritten plots, and undeveloped worlds…

It’s because when I have an idea… I’ve just got to put it down and this can mean I can get stuck on something for like days or weeks at a time… and then go on to the next thing (or nothing sometimes…). Want to know why my cast of characters is so large? It’s because whenever I get an idea about an archetype that I haven’t done, I make a new character. Now can some of these characters be mixed with others? Sure. However, only their base concepts can be. I’ve got plenty of warriors, but I can’t just mash them all into say, Niyleen. Niyleen’s so flashy in the way that she does things, so curt when it comes to money, so conflicted with so many things, and kind of jaded that if I tried to fuse her with… let’s say Arnora it wouldn’t work out. And it’s not just that.

I’ve breathed life into all of these characters, so much so that it begs the question of, if I’ve got this many characters (and a couple I haven’t decided to do the ‘Tweaking the Cast’ thing for) then how many more rejected characters do I have (and answer is a lot)? Not only that, with my big ass cast, there’s also a huge disparity when it comes to who’s being featured and the content that surrounds them. I COULD tell the story of them all, but why? Some are more important (to the world I’ve made up), more interesting (to me and others), and thus you see me kind of only have a few stories that I write about.

Would I love to detail Nyleine’s life and how she went from a simple clone, to master necromancer, no puppeteer, to lich, to the best necromancer of her time, to a sis-con? Sure. But it would be way too long, not THAT important in the grand scheme of things, and no one gives a damn about her enough to do it. It’s why I don’t tell Sorerica’s story. Although she’s the Dragonborn, she’s too caught up in the Civil War to be the focus of anything until Niyleen’s shit is over. Otherwise I’d keep having to revert to the beginning and I’m NOT about to do that. It’s why I don’t tell the Syliel’s story of an older sister by mere minutes heaving to become both provider and caretaker for her younger sister whilst having to deal with the harshness of Skyrim, being a kid herself, and the allure of the Forsworn that tears a family apart that’s only been hanging on by threads…

Lydete is supposed to encompass all of that hate that I actually have for myself for not finishing anything, but within the context of the story, her hatred for me stems from me literally having her physically go through all that crap WHILE playing dress up with her, and then retconning all of it to simply have been a fictional ‘story’ she was telling; I did all of that without resetting her memories. This ends up allowing Lydete from the jump realize that there’s something up with the world and after telling having told her story, she realizes exactly what had happened to her; that she was nothing more than a marionette.

She wanted to enact change (mainly for herself, but if other’s benefited from her actions that wasn’t a problem). Lydete believed that the best way about doing so was to beat/defeat/kill Blazingsai and Sai (at the time), therefore making me create a ‘real’ avatar that if defeated would make me relinquish my hold over Skyrim and Tamriel (in my world/story). So from the moment I she debuted on November 29. 2014 until now, she’s been tracking me down, whereas I’ve been avoiding her like the plague.

Since I’ve been avoiding her there haven’t been any pictures of her (because if I knew where she was in order to send Kyte out to her, that would mean she would be one step closer to finding me. With that being the case, why would I send Frozensai after her now? I needed information, intelligence. Frozensai knows that she’s just another piece in this game, my piece (as does Blazingsai). The only difference is that Frozensai believes that she’s special, an irreplaceable piece. This mission I sent her on was more or less a way to remove that naivety and hubris from her. If she still doesn’t understand… then that’s on her.

ALSO, if Lydete was ever to know any of this… well, you know…Something about intensifying anger and Oblivion.

…Skimming this… this doesn’t seem to be all that coherent… I apologize very deeply to  anyone that made it this far… If there are some things left untold or in need of further explanation, I will answer any and all questions regardless of the method that you ask them in.