#ft. othello

[ofvegas]

*  // ♦︎ it was @cwbosch​ in the ʙᴇᴅʀᴏᴏᴍ !

while so many members of the imperium society were concerned about what they lost, valentine found herself in a unique situation. people lost siblings, romantic interests, best friends, and yet valentine found herself gaining something––christian. in different circumstances, she would bring herself to a new relationship with caution and care, but this was no normal relationship. no, this was a relationship built out of necessity, one built on lies and deceit and withholding information, and sitting in christian’s bed, she was unclear as to what she felt worse about, committing the act overall, or getting christian involved.

they had been sitting in silence for a while, something that valentine was usually okay with, but in this situation, the silence felt heavy, weighted, and tense. she wanted to break it. she turned her bag on the floor, digging around for her coin purse, and pulled out a penny, before turning to her spot and placing it in his hands. “for your thoughts,” she explained, with a small smile on her face. 

[ofvegas]

*  // ♦︎ it was @cwbosch​ at the ᴍᴀsᴏ̨ᴜᴇʀᴀᴅᴇ ʙᴀʟʟ !

it had been a long night of keeping up appearances, of clinging to christian as if her life had depended on it. she hated herself for the dependency she was portraying, it made her feel weak and vulnerable in all the worst ways, and yet she couldn’t bring herself to be far away from him despite how hard she tried. she felt lost, alone, and even if christian wasn’t exactly who she wanted to be with, at least she was with someone.

as soon as she saw people begin to leave, she approached christian about heading home, looking at him with wide, nervous eyes and easily slipping out the door and into the parking lot, finding her way into his car. the drive back to campus was quiet, uneventful, and when they arrived at the escalus house parking lot, she gently put her hand on top of his with a soft smile. “thank you, for making sure that i was okay tonight, i really appreciate it.” 

[ofvegas]

*  // ♦︎ it was @cwbosch​​​​ at the ᴡɪɴᴛᴇʀ ғᴏʀᴍᴀʟ !

talking to dante calmed her nerves like it always did. time and time again, he proved that he knew her more intimately than anyone else, and she had lost track of christian a while ago, so what was the harm in taking a moment to converse with dante? (there was lots of harm, but her brain ignored all of it). once the conversation was finished, the pair went their separate ways, valentine on a course to try and find something new to drink in order to keep her buzz where it was. she walked towards the drinks, painfully unaware of how close her boyfriend truly was.

[ofvegas]

what would you do if christian ever turned against you?

probably scream, cry, yell, rot in jail, all that good stuff. but she can’t even picture a universe where that would happen, when christian would sell her out, because turning her in meant turning himself in with her. so, with confidence, she can simply reply “he wouldn’t.” ( @cwbosch )

[ofvegas]

do you have any ounce of romantic feelings for christian?

the question irritates her as it doubles as both a question and an accusation. she sighs. “of course i do, he’s one of the kindest and most intelligent people i have ever met, and i’m lucky to have him in my life.” he is kind, he’s covering a huge secret for her and macbeth. he is intelligent, of course he is, everyone in imperium is. and she is lucky to have him in her life, without him there’s not telling whether she would be imprisoned or free right not. and plus, an ounce? sure, she’d give him an ounce, he deserved at least that much. ( @cwbosch )

[ofvegas]

is christian the one?

“i don’t think i believe in the concept of ‘the one.’ like how conceited does a person have to be to think that out of the billions of people in the world, the one person who they’re meant to be with happened to be in the right place at the right time to meet them? it just doesn’t make much sense to me.” plus, if there was a “one” for her, christian was definitely not it, but she didn’t think adding that to her answer was all that important. ( @cwbosch )

[ofvegas]

do you think christian will ever betray you?

the question rings in her ears for a moment. yes, she does, it’s her greatest fear right now, second to only the bugs that seem incapable of leaving her the fuck alone. the moment he decides that he’s no longer content with keeping her secret, she’s done for. but admitting any sort of weakness right now is something she is unwilling to do. “christian and i have our problems just like any other couple, but we love each other, and i know that he’ll be by my side no matter what.” at least, she hopes he will. ( @cwbosch )