Most of my therapy sessions has come to the point where I state, "I feel so stuck. What am I doing?"Â and she asks, "What do you want to change? What do you want to work on?" I begin to rant off vague, big statements of things I want. If I could change it all I would, but it doesn't work like that. She again asks, "What do you want to change?"
Life isn't terrible, for the most part I get by and deal. Grin and bare it. But who wants to just get by? I want to seize life and treasure it. I want to feel something more than passable emotions. Life shouldn't be so-so. Life should be exciting and inviting. We only have one. I feel stuck any many facets of my life - momentarily or long term and I think... Stagnancy is not comfort.
I'm surrounded by bitter, resentful people whose bark is bigger than their bite. I'm stuck looking at people who doesn't want much who think their life is great with simplicity, but I see that it's the root of their depression. I see people who hide behind things, and see their dissatisfaction manifest in other destructive ways. I'm more than a little frustrated and it's sad that this has been going on for far too long. This is my life. I need to do what I love.
 What to do, what to do?