ohhh im starting to have to go. i chugged my whole water bottle and a can of dr. pepper, now im drinking sweet tea.
the water bottle was about 40 minutes ago (around 8:30pm) and i think its starting to sink in now at 9:10. i laid down and it's a little better but im sure it wont for long
9:50, starting to dance a little. occasionally having to focus, probably like a 5/10. it's going quick now though... im pretty sure as soon as i stand up it's gonna spike up quick
9:55, literally 5 minutes later. i did stand up to smoke and it jumped straight up to an 8. i couldn't hold still the entire time i was doing that, and it only takes me about two minutes. im about to go grab a change of clothes and go sit in the bath tub and wait for my muscles to give out 😅
9:58, im starting to breathe heavy and im shaking. 9.5/10, gonna lose it any second now. leaked into my underwear but caught myself, im about to be at my max. holy fuck im gonna lose control so bad im so desperate
10:01... lost it. i was genuinely shaking so bad i couldn't hold it anymore. i moved to the toilet because i realized i didn't wanna actually get my tub wet so late and that only made me lose it quicker. i definitely didn't let myself snap easy, i crossed my legs and i was shaking so bad i couldn't hold still. my bladder was rock hard but i could barely feel it because i was so focused on holding.
i leaked again a little more this time, knowing i was about to lose it. i still tried my hardest though, enjoying the feeling of my muscles totally giving out. and give out they really did, another spurt happening quickly after, then the dam broke. i had too many chances and couldn't do it anymore.
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