#fulllness

[surrealcatharsis]

Soulful, to remain soulful

[yogaismyantidrug-blog]

I'm seriously so grateful for my dear friend Kate.  I met her here on Tumblr, and she has seriously helped me through so much.  I honestly don't know what I'd do without her guidance sometimes.

She's strong and inspiring and beautiful and loving.

If you don't follow her, you're seriously doing a disservice to yourself.

xx

[strongerthan-yesterday]

fulllness replied to your post: fulllness replied to your photoset: Progress isn’t...

it’s way true, you pretty lady!

You're making me very happy! You're beautiful yourself :3

[strongerthan-yesterday]

fulllness replied to your photoset: Progress isn’t always physical or visible, but...

you are GORGEOUS!

And you are lovely! Thank you, that's really nice of you :))

[yogaismyantidrug-blog]

haaay. so i hope you're enjoying your cookie. MUAHAHAHAHAHA. ;)

omomomomomomomomomomgggg <3 

LOVE THIS GIRL.

[strongerthan-yesterday]

fulllness replied to your post: fulllness replied to your link: I don’t want to...

When I have my own home, I’m going to adopt and train the sweetest pitbull (or other “bad” dog). For now, I just keep telling others not to judge so quickly, especially when it’s cruel humans that gave the dogs bad reps in the first place. Argh.

*Clapping* THIS. I hate how humans can't see what we do wrong ourselves and yet are so quick to blame and punish - in this case murder - other animals. If tigers can be trained, so can dogs. But seriously, I love you for this, haha.

[strongerthan-yesterday]

fulllness replied to your link: I don't want to believe what I'm seeing in this post.

I completely agree :’(

It's horrible! Just the ignorance and judgement of some people piss me off so much! And I'm trying to prevent myself from ranting all over again but just garrghhh!

[fulllness-blog]

Hi! First, I love your blog. I'm moving towards recovery from an ED and just reading your posts has already brought me encouragement. Second, I saw your post of the picture you drew tonight; you mentioned that the story behind it was really personal, but you'd be willing to share. Would you mind telling me the story behind it? I'd love to hear it!

First off, I am SO glad that I could bring any encouragement into your day, you've just brought some time mine!

And okay, so I figured I'd post a picture of it here so it would be easier to explain and see. Also, I apologize for the depressing-ness upfront!

So, last year in February, my best friend and gymnastics coach died really unexpectedly. I was probably the last person she talked to, and the guilt and just depression of that was a lot. And the services were very private, and so I never got to see her, and I never got to say goodbye. My family wasn't very supportive, they didn't understand, so I had to deal with this really on my own. This piece is kind of dealing with that, and my journey through that. So the girl on the top represents her, and the hands reaching up on the bottom represent how desperate I was for awhile to have her back. I just kept making irrational bargain after bargain with anything to try and have her back. And then I went into a really deep, dark depression, and I was suicidal, and it was just generally a really bad place for me. That's kind of represented by the falling girls. But I feel like after this really awful year, I'm seeing something new. Like I'm coming out of this better than I went in. And there's a real change in me, from even who I was when she was still alive. Hence the girls changing into flowers (which sounds cheesy writing it out lolol). And I just feel like I'm finally able to let her rest easy now, without wishing she was back so much, and just accepting how things are now. So that's more or less represented by the outline of the face at the bottom and the hands pouring the flowers over it. 

Whew! So yeah, this drawing means a lot to me because of that. And if you took the time to read all of this, go you!