be there | e.d
Summary: You wanted to show your voice to the people you loved the most, but someone is missing.
Warning: Kinda angst? But fluff at the end
Word count: 2.616
Taking a deep breath, you closed your eyes. The microphone was in your hands, still turned off, but in a few minutes it wouldn’t be. You wanted this, you had spent the last week practicing and practicing every day for this moment. You have never sung for anyone else but yourself, and when you saw a huge paper on a music-bar, saying that they were looking for some voices; you couldn’t help but write your contact on it. This was your chance.
Knowing you were this nervous, you asked only a few people to come to see you: Grayson, your best friend, and his girl, which also happened to be your girl best friend. And of course, your beautiful boyfriend, Ethan. It was a huge surprise for him knowing that his girl could sing but never showed it, so of course he was excited to see you on the little stage. He was really tired and busy that week, but he said and promised he was going to make it.
The girl who was hosting the little show went up the stage as soon as the song that a band was playing ended. She smiled at the few people that where on the bar, and raised her microphone to her mouth so she could speak.
“So awesome!” she almost shouted, making the speaker creek because of her high sound. “It’s so sad that it’s coming to an end, but we have one more person that is going to take our breath away with her voice!”
She never heard me sing.
“Let’s welcome the beautiful and talented, Y/N!”
You took one last breath before showing yourself on the stage. You could hear some people clapping, other chattering, and suddenly, a little scream. Your cheeks instantly blushed. Grayson was hollering your name, and his girl was laughing beside him but clapping loudly. You would have smiled at them, you were really happy they were there. But when your eyes landed on the empty chair beside them, your heart stung.
He wasn’t there.
It seemed that your face showed your surprise and disappointment, because when you looked at Gray, he was looking at you too, but sadly. He shrugged his shoulders and mouthed an “I don’t know”. Swallowing your feelings as soon as you started to feel them trying to prick your eyes, you looked at the girl beside you.
“Thank you very much” you said, and clearing your throat, you showed your best smile “This song meant a lot to me when I was growing up, and as it is the first time I sing in public, I thought this was the chance to express myself with it”
You sat on the high chair that was on the middle of the stage, moving the microphone’s stick so it could be at your height while sitting. Looking at the guy that was waiting for your sign so the song could start, he nodded his head as soon as you looked at him and the song started playing.
Me prendí fuego para despojarme (I set myself on fire to deprive myself)
Para desvestirme para desnudarme. ( To undress me, to undress me)
Me incendie toda para no quedarme (I set myself on fire so I couldn’t stay)
Ni aun ni en el viento podrás encontrarme. (Not even in the wind you will find me)
You felt betrayed. He promised he would be there. You understood the fact that he was busy and tired, but so were you every time you went with him everywhere. Recording his videos, editing them, making some videos with him and Gray; all that, knowing that sometimes there was no time to rest. You’d been dating for more than a year now, and in all that time, you have never asked for anything, because you didn’t need to. And the one time you asked him to be there for you, because you needed him to, he couldn’t do it.
Y fui luz, fui destello (And I was light, I was flash)
Fui dolor, fui humana... (I was pain, I was human)
Cuando fuiste agua (When you were wáter)
Yo crecí en llamas (I grew up in flames)
Y cuando fuiste fuego (And when you were fire)
Me cayeron las lágrimas, lágrimas. (I cried tears, tears)
Y cuando fuiste sueño (And when you were a dream)
Yo estaba despierta (I was awake)
Y tú tan dormido (And you so asleep)
No te diste cuenta, ni cuenta. (You didn’t even notice, even notice)
The tears were really trying to let themselves fall, but it was your first time on a stage, you didn’t want to cry, not even because of Ethan. You repeated yourself that, trying to soothe the pain inside your heart, while trying to continue with the song.
Me prendí fuego para que me vieras ( I set myself on fire so you could see me)
Pero estabas ciego y ya no sentías (But you were blind and didn’t feel anything)
Y ahora qué quieres encontrarme toda (And now that you want to find me completely)
No hay fuego ni llama ni amor ni ceniza. (There is no fire, no flame, no love, no ashes)
Y fui luz, fui destello (And I was light, I was flash)
Fui dolor, fui humana... (I was pain, I was human)
Cuando fuiste agua (When you were wáter)
Yo crecí en llamas (I grew up in flames)
Y cuando fuiste fuego (And when you were fire)
Me cayeron las lágrimas, lágrimas. (I cried tears, tears)
Y cuando fuiste sueño (And when you were a dream)
Yo estaba despierta (I was awake)
Y tú tan dormido (And you so asleep)
No te diste cuenta, ni cuenta. (You didn’t even notice, even notice)
Soy el aire en ti, volando sin fin (I am the air on you, flying without end)
Soy la gota de amor volviendo a sumar (I am the drop of love added back again)
Soy tu alma sin luz que ya se olvidó (I am your sould without light that has already forgotten)
En ese corazón que ya se paró. (In that heart that has already stopped)
You blinked so many times, you really did. You tried anything to stop the tears, but as soon as you felt the first one, then there was another, and another, and so it went. The people watching you probably thought you were emotional because of the song and the meaning it had for you, but only two of them that were looking at you intently knew the real reason behind your wet cheeks.
Y fui luz, fui destello (And I was light, I was flash)
Fui dolor, fui humana... (I was pain, I was human)
Cuando fuiste agua (When you were water)
Yo crecí en llamas (I grew up in flames)
Y cuando fuiste fuego (And when you were fire)
Me cayeron las lágrimas, lágrimas. (I cried tears, tears)
Y cuando fuiste sueño (And when you were a dream)
Yo estaba despierta (I was awake)
Y tú tan dormido (And you so asleep)
No te diste cuenta, ni cuenta te diste. (You didn’t even notice, even notice)
No te diste cuenta, ni cuenta. (You didn’t even notice, even notice)
No te diste cuenta, ni cuenta (You didn’t even notice, even notice)
No te diste cuenta, ni cuenta (You didn’t even notice, even notice)
No te diste cuenta, ni cuenta (You didn’t even notice, even notice)
No te diste cuenta, ni cuenta. (You didn’t even notice, even notice)
A sob wanted to escape your mouth as soon as you stopped singing. You could hear people clapping again, others hollering, and other where whistling. You feel your heart proud of yourself, even though the pain, you felt proud of yourself. But the only person who you wanted to really be there, was somewhere else, not working because his brother was watching your perfomance, and forgot completely about your night.
You were more disappointed than proud.
♦
The ride back home was silent. The only noise you could hear was the beat of the song that was played on a radio station. Neither Gray nor his girl said anything about Ethan, not only because you didn’t want to ask, but because they also were pissed off with him. Gray tried to contact him all afternoon, but his brother was nowhere to be seen or known.
The car stopped in front to the twins’ house, and even when the engine stopped under you, you didn’t get off the car. You were alone at the back; you wanted to be there so you could silently cry your heart out without having someone next to you, looking at you or trying to comfort you.
You were really hurt.
Gray’s eyes met yours when both of you looked at the rear-view mirror. He sighed.
“I am going to kill him, I promise”
Smirking a little bit, you tried to joke with him.
“We will take turns.”
If Ethan didn’t die after his brother’s turn.
Closing the car’s door after you got out, you froze on your place when you heard an angry scream and a curse, followed by some orders or something like that. Grayson could hear it to, and looking sideways at you, he lunged at the door. You and his girlfriend went right behind him, trying to stop him while he was walking to his brother’s room. He was fuming and he was going to kill his brother.
Almost breaking the door, Grayson glared at his brother, who had his eyes wide opened, with one of the headphones behind his ears and the joystick in his hands. He didn’t even saw you behind Grayson, he was much bigger than you and you were easily hidden behind his back.
“Grayson, what the--? What’s wrong?”
Oh no.
“Are you fucking kidding me, Ethan?! ‘What’s wrong’?!” he exploded, walking to Ethan who instantly let his headphones fall as soon as he stood up from his computer chair “Where the fuck were you all this time?”
Ethan furrowed his eyebrows.
“I was here playing some games, we didn’t have to work today, did we?” he asked confused, still not looking at your direction. Grayson’s girlfriend almost slapped her forehead with her palm after hearing Ethan’s question. “Did something happen?”
If you didn’t speak, Grayson was going to murder him. So clearing your throat, you make yourself notice.
“You didn’t come, Ethan.”
His hazel eyes landed on you the moment he heard your voice, and you could see the worry on his stare as soon as he noticed your tear stained cheeks. He looked confused too, still not comprehending the situation.
“What do you mean? What did I miss?”
Before you could answer, Grayson shoved his phone onto his brother’s chest. Ethan looked down, and when the video his brother opened on his phone started playing, he was speechless. As he listened to you singing that beautiful song, his heart stung with guilt and regret. You sang beautifully, but his heart completely broke when he saw the tears falling of your eyes when you were on the stage. And he knew, he knew he fucked up so bad.
When the video finished, the room fell silent. You didn’t want to speak, you thought that if you tried to, only mumbles and incoherent words would come out. That’s how you were; shy and awkward when it comes to trying to not to break in front of someone. So instead of saying something, you excused yourself and walked as fast as possible to the nearest bathroom, where you locked yourself, and finally, let the sob you were trying to hold since the second you noticed Ethan’s absence at the bar.
You felt stupid for crying. It was supposed to be the best night ever, where you should be proud instead of sad and disappointed, which made things worse, because it angered you that your night ended like shit. If it wasn’t because you were trying to be so loud with your crying, the slam of a door would have scared you. That was probably Grayson going to his room, and you confirmed it when you heard Gray’s girl say some loud stuff to Ethan before slamming the door again.
It wasn’t until some seconds later, or probably a minute, that you heard some heavy footsteps walk up to the other side of the door.
“Y/N? Baby?” you heard Ethan’s soft voice call “Can-Can you please open? I want to apologize, like, so bad. I-I have no excuses, I know, but-please, can you unlock the door?”
A part of you didn’t want to open the door. You still needed to calm or soothe the pain in your heart, and you had a little bit of pride when it came to betrayal. But it was your silly and cute boyfriend the one who was begging you not only to open the door, but to forgive him. Yes, you were still pretty mad, but he did have his right to explain himself or at least make a good apologize speech before you break his nose with a slam of the door.
Unlocking the door, you sighed before opening it. You had to look up to stare directly at his eyes, the height difference between you two was huge. He still had his brother’s phone in his hands, but his hazel eyes were on you, and when he opened his mouth to say something, he closed his eyes.
“You have no idea how fucking sorry I am. I-I don’t know what happened to me, I don’t know how I could forget a date so important to you. I just don’t know. But what I know is that you’re amazing, you’re so beautiful and so talented. And meanwhile, I’m a jerk that doesn’t deserves to be listened to right now but that needs to tell you how sorry he is and how much he loves you. With all his heart. And I’m really proud of you, baby, you fucking slayed up there.”
You couldn’t help but laugh at the end of his speech, tilting your head backwards and shaking it while still laughing. He was good with words, not with dates, but he really mended all the pain with some words. And that was one of the many reasons you were in love with Ethan Dolan.
When he regretted something, he knew exactly what to say to make you believe he was sorry.
Your eyes landed on him again, and then on his hands that were playing with the corner of the phone’s case. That was his nervous habit, which made you smile a little bit, and looking at his eyes again, you sighed.
“I’m going to draw you a fucking calendar next time, okay?”
Ethan smiled.
“Big on my room’s wall please.”
Laughing again, you threw yourself into your boyfriend’s arms, that hugged you tightly and warmly against his chest. You felt his lips kiss the top of your head, and his chin rest on top of it after that.
“I love you, baby, and I love your voice.”
Smiling against the soft material of his hoodie, you smelled his scent.
“I love you too, assclown.”
Not only he was good with his words, but also he was good when it comes to make ups. Because the next day, as soon as you woke up and walked to the kitchen to get your morning coffee, you felt you heart beat so fast at the sight of a little stage made up with some boxes and chairs, meanwhile Ethan was sitting with his legs crossed on the floor, with Grayson and his girl beside him.
He was there.
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