the jobs have been for absolute shit this week. pickings are slim and what's available has been generally awful. if i don't find a good one in an hour i'm gonna hang it up for tonight and do something else

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the jobs have been for absolute shit this week. pickings are slim and what's available has been generally awful. if i don't find a good one in an hour i'm gonna hang it up for tonight and do something else
Amazon order is like a day late. Honestly at this point I may as well accept that I've probably been scammed and just add the huge loss of money to the list of mistakes I have made. I JUST WANT MY FKN PS4 PLS THANK U
i’ve gotten to the point where i really do not like telling anyone anything about anything anymore. this feeling of being so disconnected from people keeps getting bigger and bigger. i feel like i can’t express anything without sounding crazy. i feel like i can’t express anything and have anyone actually understand me.
*teen angst voice* ~ugh, nobody understands me!! 😩
but really. i think it’s me. idk what it is, or what’s caused it, but i just do not feel like i know how to express myself anymore. because every time i do, later on i always feel really stupid for doing it. i feel so crazy. nothing on this earth makes me want to crawl under a rock than when someone ELSE makes me feel crazy about how i feel. i feel immense regret. i almost get mad at the person i said anything to because i feel like “why do you know these things about me when you don’t even understand?” i’m annoyed with myself for feeling this way because i never used to. this was never me. i’ve always been an open book bc i like to talk. it helps me. it’s extremely therapeutic. and now it’s like... i just.. i don’t want anything. with anyone. i literally want to cry every time i feel like i’m misunderstood and that is quite possibly the dumbest shit on the planet. did i mention i’m a slut for invalidating my own feelings?
TL;DR - i’m a big fucking mess and i wish i could fix how i felt.
One of the teaching groups I am a member of on facebook is the most sanctimonious, stuck up, ‘better than everyone’ groups I’ve ever seen - excepting like 10% of the people.
They’ll be the first to complain about their pay packets, how much paperwork they have to do, the ‘harsh’ standards imposed on them, but then when temp teachers talk about the lack of jobs, suddenly they think temp teachers should suck it up.
dis my 20,000th fuckin post on here goddamn !
this is literally the worst time of year. i just turn into a sad hermit.
trying to analyze Hemingway makes me wanna take shots of vodka til I pass out