Feb 8, 2024
mutuals send me the strength to get through tomorrow
#the situation is#i pass as a guy about 95% of the time#60% once i speak#i needa start correcting people at school before they get the idea in their heads that i'm a girl#but its FUCKING SCARY#ive genuinely never corrected anyone ever#bc before starting at this school monday i've only ever been out iwith family (too scared)#and at work with other employees or customers (too scared + one-time interaction or low stakes interaction)#whereas school. thats not 6 hours a week thats a lot mroe#fuucck#scary shit#i ahve a stomach ache just at the thought#i was meant to bring up hrt at the doctors a few months ago as a secondary thing at an appointment but i didnt#but now. for next week i have an appoinment where its the primary focus#still unlikely considering the whole process yadayada and most of all parental consent from BOTH. 😒#and my dad is. a 'bit' of a prick#but if he hasn't made any progress by next month. well. perhaps it's time to look elsewhere#anyway fingers crossed for hrt which ive wanted for the past two and a half (three?) years 😔 but i can't rely on that#so i just need to correct peoplenow. quickly. while im still new#ueguh#oscar.exe
