#g4grantz

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i’m still here, i just have no desire to post pictures here anymore since i got a lot of grief over the detrans thing. mentally im doing better than i ever have been, which may be playing a part into why im not sat around looking on here all day anymore, i cut back on how much weed i smoke by 85% and onky do it at night now which also probably plays another part in my inactivtey. but theres also the fact ive lost around 45lbs since stopping T, so i think im maybe scared no ones gonna care for my littler belly as apposed to how i was a few months ago.

[gut4grabz]

sorry im not active atm, i still plan to use the account. just been coming off full dose prozac for the last week and a half and just git started on elvanse and its kinda messin w me while my body adjusts, unfortunately both of thise things cane with a lack of appetite and i have lost 4 lbs already, i did however give in and make a personal life blog its just lonlier over there

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decided to stick with this account for the time being, anyone whos hateful is gonna get instantly blocked no debate

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im probably gonna make a new account, i dont feel comfortable to be myself here anymore. if you want the new account pm me, i’ll probably make it in the morning and deactivate this one 24 hours after.

[gut4grabz]

I'm so sorry things are so harsh for you right now and I'm so sorry people aren't showing you empathy for such hard times. Detransitioning isn't something to be taken lightly and whilst it is my personal belief based on what you said that you may come to regret it in the long term, I'm not gonna police your life and ultimately you need to do what feels correct for you. No one online knows your life the way you do and you deserve to feel support to consider your options instead of scorn.

Take your time to think things over, rest well and I hope that things improve for you sooner than later.

thank you for this, despite your beliefs, i appreciate the kindness. as someone whos previously identified as transmed up until a weeks ago, i fear i’ll probably regret it however i’ve made my life 10x harder by being trans, but after being on T a couple years i still dont pass. i’ll always wish i was born a man, but i dont think its possible i’ll ever be seen as one in this body or this life

sorry got a bit ranty/deep there my bad lol

[gut4grabz]

welp the amount of hateful msgs i got yesterday might just be enough to stop me ever posting again.

:(

[gut4grabz]

im going through sm shit mentally atm ive had zero confidence to post or take photos, nor have i barely eaten. i feel bad for not replying to people but i just dunno how to respond to anything indirect when im so overwhelmed. todays the first day ive started to feel a tiny bit better. but i know ive got a lot of hard things to face in the future, i’m potentially considering detransitioning not because of not feeling this way anymore, but for the simpler, easier life. i couldve settled down by now, probably had a kid and a full time job i could be proud of had i never came out. im very confused by it at the moment so bare with me please.

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i might make a personal tumblr cause i’m going through some stuff right now n honestly dunno where to vent it