Still working on the back end to get the Patreon etc up and running. Here's what's going on:
You can still purchase the completed OG version of Raise Hell here ($1+ It's pay what you want as long as you're spending at least a dollar). If for some reason you are unable to purchase, hit me up at mamazoomzrh @ gmail . com and we can work something out.
Working on a PDF of all of Eli's poems for one tier.
Almost done re-editing the Gabeli XXXmas one shot (now known as Again & Again) for another tier.
You can now follow me on Instagram if you want.
Currently my biggest undertaking is working on the Gabeli AU for the biggest tier. It's called Hell Is Empty and I'll make sure to tell you all more about it when it's ready.
And of course, I'm still fleshing out A Name Of My Own (for the same tier as Again & Again, btw).
That's all there is for now. I'm really hoping to get this up and running before the end of the year, so fingers crossed.
Good news for A Name of My Own enjoyers--the Patreon version will be an extended version mapping out Gabe's fatherhood journey to its logical conclusion.
Better news: I'm actually writing it, which is the most important part. It's just been sitting in my Reedsy for how many months now? Whatever. Point is I am actually working on Patreon stuff in the background (whenever I get the chance between daily adult responsibilities) and hopefully I'll have enough posted over there to feel comfortable sharing the link.
Original recipe Raise Hell...mostly. This is a complete and cleaned up version of Raise Hell. It's all in the same tense and POV (Eli's, spe
If you missed the chance to download Raise Hell from AO3, a new opportunity has just arisen.
This is a slightly updated version (cleaned up grammar, everything is in the same tense and all in Eli's POV instead of POV jumping like the old version). Boosh references still intact. All 22 chapters--the completed 2024 version of the story in one zip file.
It's pay what you want (within reason) and will be on offer for the entirety of my re-writing process, so you have time to actually grab it and enjoy it.
I've been gone so long that I don't even know what Boosh fandom is like anymore. I don't know how active it is, I don't know who all is still hanging around. Really I can only hope that by posting this to AO3, anyone who is subscribed to me will see this update and be happy that the story is finally complete.
This story's incomplete status has haunted me for years. I met my best friend through Boosh fandom in the LiveJournal days (RIP--I have fully lost my login for that site) and since I moved in with her in June of 2019, she has stayed on top of my ass about finally completing this fic.
As you'll all know, I wrote and posted two chapters in 2019 (as well as two one-shots for this universe) with the harassment of my bestie and cheerleading from @cle-o-pat-ra, whom I own an apology to for falling off the face of the planet once the pandemic hit.
I had a real All Eyes On Me moment in 2020. Without getting too much into it, after years of dealing with mental health issues which led to me becoming a shut-in, I moved across country to be with my best friend. I started going out, I started making friends. I started finally living. And then Covid happened and I went off the rails a bit. Quite a bit.
It took some work, but I am doing a lot better now.
So what prompted this return?
Ironically, it was watching GBBO with Bestie over dinner each night. We subscribed to Netflix just to watch it this year. It was seeing Noel--smiley, cheeky, and only just now finally beginning to show any signs of aging--that made my heart clinch.
I found myself wondering what Gabe would be up to at Noel's current age. How Eli is doing.
I realized I missed these characters desperately.
I can only hope you did, too.
Because I have tentative plans for the future...
I'm going to tag the folks I can remember enjoying this fic back when I was more active in the fandom. And I'll be around, in case me showing up like this stirs up any big feelings.
Thank you all for showing so much patience towards me. For loving these characters and playing in this space with me for ten long years. I've missed this world and I've missed you.
And of course, giant, massive thanks to @derangedficrecs / @derangedbutterfly for being this fic's beta for over half the chapters before my life got so hectic and...well, I owe you an apology too. I'm sorry.
Going back through this fic and finally writing the last chapter opened the floodgates for me, in a way. As I said in my last post, I’d been wondering about what Gabe and Eli in the future would be like, what their lives would look like. I wrote a glimpse into their future back in 2019 in A Name of My Own. But I still feel like there’s more to uncover, more to learn, to discover.
Finishing Raise Hell felt monumental for me. When I completed the last chapter, I sat staring at the final line for fifteen minutes, asking myself if I could do this—if I could finally publish it. If I was ready for this all to be over. Because this fic had started out as a coping mechanism for me. When I’d began writing it, I identified pretty heavily with Eli—like I wanted so desperately to have someone come rescue me. Someone who knew how to care for me while also pushing me to be my best in ways that felt challenging, but not scary. Weirdly, it felt difficult to essentially ‘let go’ of that time in my life, that version of me.
Weirder, still, is the fact that just like Eli, I essentially got exactly what I wanted. I moved in with my best friend. We’ve built a life together. I’m happy, and I’m finally beginning to thrive instead of just survive. I clicked publish. I decided to let go of the 24 year old version of me.
And by the next day, (nearly) 34 year old me had an idea for a second Gabeli story—a road map unfurled in my mind, the journey these two men could take stretching out before me. I have the notes written down for a second story, ready to begin writing.
What does this mean for RH?
For Raise Hell as it currently exists? Probably nothing.
In its current form, Raise Hell has a few problems—tense-shifting, for one, a couple Boosh/Mint Royale references that would need changed if I were to publish it. I have copy/pasted the whole of the fic into my favorite writing program and am slowly combing through it, fixing the problems with tenses, formatting it, etc. I do have plans to eventually get it up for sale in its new form (with a couple extra scenes included), but that’s in the future. If you loved it, I’d download it now so that you’ll always have access to it in its original form because it might not remain forever on AO3.
What is Heaven & Earth?
The sequel I’m planning for Raise Hell. It will be set roughly two years after the conclusion of RH and will follow one major plot and two minor subplots as we follow the boys further into their relationship.
We’ll see how Jen, Ben, and Kat are doing and we’ll find out more about Spuds, James, and Alan, too.
We’ll uncover more insights about Gabe’s past and his parents, and we’ll see some things from Eli’s past get wrapped up as well.
Will you be posting H&E to AO3?
Yes! Any Gabeli stuff I work on will be posted to AO3 first and then be made available in other formats, reconfigured, improved, etc. later.
What is Hereafter?
The long and short of it is I don’t know yet! Coming back to finish a fic (and then go on to continue it) for what appears to be a dead fandom is a…weird experience, to say the least. I’m convinced at this point that I’m only continuing this for my own benefit at this point, but I think I’m fine with that.
I think once I’ve finished with H&E, the picture will become clearer for Hereafter. Or Hereafter may become just a collection of oneshots only on AO3—random snapshots of Gabe and Eli’s lives at different points. I don’t know. I’ll figure it out when the time comes.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Hi. I’ve posted 13,317 words of pure smut, narrated in Gabe’s voice.
MERRY CHRISTMAS
Happy Holidays, y'all! I bring not only tiding of cheer and all that, but also 13,200 words of pure smut mixed in with some fluff.
Set in 2014. They're married. They're going up to Gabe's parent's estate while they're away on vacation. And they're gonna have very kinky sex all over the house. That's it. That's the whole plot.
There //are// hints as to where they're at relationship wise at this point in time. How far they've come. How far they haven't. I know I haven't posted the last chapter of Raise Hell yet, but it's coming! I just wanted to do something special for y'all this Christmas. (Also, there's a scene in here in honor of @kateyboosh‘s birthday. She's also to blame for how much fluff made it into this fic. Thanks for cheering me through the writing process, babe! You're a gem. <3)
PLEASE HEED THE TAGS. There's nothing too bad in here, but if you think you'll have a hard time with any of them (especially mentions of disordered eating), then please be forewarned.
