"Deep down, you’re scared. Aren’t you?"
"No i'm not." Rusty spoke, her voice quivering, just like her bottom lip was doing. Her body was betraying her mind, showing how just how scared she actually was, and that was something she didn't want to do. Her whole life was basically showing people she was okay on the outside, in the hopes that it would make her feel better on the inside. And for a while, it works, it remedies the situation. That is, until she remembers where she came from, and where she had to go back too.
The fact that Johnny could peel away each layer of her, examine it, and put it back knowing that much more about her made Rusty uncomfortable, raw, but also very much loved. This was still a situation that she didn't want to talk about until she was well dead.
He repeated himself again, and Rusty lowered her head, tears brimming in her eyes. "I'm not." Stubbornly, she pushed away the tears and looked back up with a watery smile, her fingers shaking as she did the action. Looking into Johnny's unwavering eyes broke something with her, and her face contorted into pain, sadness, and yes, fear. "Yes, I'm scared." She asked, feeling his arms wrap around her in an effort to console the crying blonde. "Why does he do it?" She asked, the tears rolling down her cheeks, dripping off her chin. "Is it me? Do I deserve it?" He held her a little tighter, and Rusty could feel her legs give out on her. If it wasn't for him holding her up, she would have fallen. "I'm so scared Johnny, I don't want to go back."