I’ve been really tired the last few days and I knew I wanted to write a longer piece about the new month, so I put it off for a few days to focus on my training, sleeping and a couple of other things.
The theme for this month is gay, Goddess mentioned it as a possibility a couple of weeks ago and (if she decided so) I was looking forward to it. I’ve had explicitly gay material before in my training and it’s been hit and miss (sometimes it just leaves me cold!) but I was eager to try it again.
In the past whenever things don’t seem to quite work I’ve become a little downhearted but I think I’m past that now and Goddess has said that my clit not responding is part of the process, so I was eager to dive in.
Day 1 was frottage which for some reason I thought was something else entirely! I’ve been without significant c*ck for a while so going back and having two of them was fun! This was an easy one to get excited at, two c*cks together rubbing or been stroked and finally c*mming, I could easily insert myself into that picture! I much preferred ones with the sound from the video as opposed to PMV.
Day 2 was watching gang-bangs. This was hit and miss (Goddess explained this was planned), I was allowed to be penetrated at both ends and there were a couple of other parts to it, but some of them (mostly ones where the participants were 100% musclemen) left me ice cold whereas the ones with more of a mix of types worked better.
Knowing that it’s part of the process I stuck with it, even when I wasn’t aroused, and watched those videos for a little longer, partly to expose myself a little more and partly to show myself that I could. It struck me how much less chat there was then in m/f gang-bangs but everyone was kept busy and the sex seemed to be a lot harder.
Which lead to my weekend task, twinks! Smooth, soft sometimes long haired twinks. Browsing the videos got me quite turned on, watching the videos led to a more mixed response. A lot of it was amateur stuff, which let’s just say I prefer the alternative, but I did find some of them hot and I responded to the softer nature of the videos.
I think doing the training tucked is also taking some getting used to, instead of trying to get “hard” all the way through, it has a couple of attempts and then seems to just stop so it’s different then when I’m using my cage.
This month is going to be wild and even a little scary but I‘m looking forward to it!
