I never thought i'd say this but it feels so good to be back at my flat. I've always found it so hard to open up to people and genuinely trust them. I've lived my whole life surrounded by arseholes, with the one exception of my best friend, Gemma Page. She is my fucking world. I seriously have no idea what i'd do without her and i'm so lucky to have someone who genuinely gives a shit about me.
After years of being able to rely on only one person, I finally thought i'd found someone else who I could trust with my life and I can't believe how wrong I was. I'm just glad I found out in the early stages how little I meant to them so that I can move on with my life with the little dignity I have left.
Partners come and go, but I have some amazing friends who genuinely give a shit about me and from now on, they come first. It just fucking sucks that it came to this.
You'll never know how much I cared about you.