sometimes i wonder if my being bigender is just a kind of escapism. like when i'm feel sad/dysphoric i wish i were someone else, and that person is often male (people think i'm female). I know that it's not JUST because of escapism, but i feel bad about it? thoughts?
I have often thought that a lot of my net experience, including my being out as genderfluid here, has that sort of function, as a sort of escape valve. I majored in literature, too, can you get the feeling of what I mean? The real world has plenty of things that make us feel unwelcome and unsafe.
It's all right to feel that expressing your gender helps you to be released from your pressures and stresses, we all need a release at times, after all! There is no need to feel guilty about it, I believe. If you mean that to a large degree it's a fantasy of yours, well, heck, gender is a sort of social fantasy to start with, so there's no blame connected with that, right?
What do you all think?Flavia