#gentlelonging

[noctiline]

sometimes i wonder why the idea of being close to a woman feels so different lately.

not just closeness…

but being held by someone older, softer, grounding.

i’ve come across the word “mommy” for it. and maybe that’s part of it.

or maybe it’s just a need i’m only starting to understand. either way, it feels real.

and even writing that feels strange. but also… a little honest.