#gessekaii

[luodieshang]

top 10 songs this week; tagged by @gessekaii 🌹 tonight is the night - the god and death stars 縄 - 蜉蝣 hallelujah - THE NOVEMBERS a fool moon night - THE KOXX 贝加尔湖畔 - 李健 PLEDGE - the GazettE elephant in the room - the god and death stars 丑八怪 - 薛之谦  aoguroi hysteria - sukekiyo cage - dir en grey

i’ll tag @kimchimix @kisouu @hauntist @rakija @suubyss; no pressure, though!

[xingflowers]

The moon has me in tidal lock. 
 I imagine my lips on his. My hands in his. My body with his. My mind is in a dense daydream, and I cannot tell what’s reality. 
 Is this what my mother felt? The feeling of being high in a smokey euphoria, that she gave away her body five times to a man. God forbid I repeat her footsteps and give myself away four more times. 
 I am afraid of the consequences for throwing myself over a cliff. 
 In this fall, the moon is my witness and she is responsible for my madness. She calls me Icarus, she calls me a foolish woman. She calls me Izanami, who burns. 
 I am Lilith, angry and lustful. 
 I am Juliet Capulet, naive and unfortunate. 
 I am Lady Akashi, who sacrifices and suffers. 
 To love this deeply is my grave mistake. My mistake in which it brought me the most happiness. 
 If I love this harshly, it may create my soft landing, my soft death. 
 I ask the moon for help, but instead she smiles and watches me fall. 
 I’ve asked too late.

G. | To Fall, To Love This Harshly

[kurumeki]

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send me a 🎵 and i’ll shuffle my music and respond with the song + what my favorite lyric is

L’Arc~en~Ciel / Anemone

Surrounded by the kindness of the dear people,I take off towards youWith those shining memories engraved in my heart,The wind pushes me to the road, which continues to the port

[xingflowers]

Mother, you poisoned me.

Before you left, you let snakes go down my throat. I talk like an angel, but deep down I am venomous and ready to kill.

Mother, I think I heard you laugh.

My face red and swollen, because serpents wouldn’t let me breathe. I was crying because no one came to hold me.

Mother, would you be laughing if you knew about my choking?

I screamed “Death! Take me now!” as I tried to hang below those flowery branches. That day, a man has cut me with his knife and laughed at my rejection and uncomfort.

I woke up with the rope still around my neck and I was right next to him in bed.

Mother, what’s like to be the devil?

What’s it like to be named after so pure, but in reality be like a weed? I’m sure you killed without hesitating.

My face, your face, are alike. My anger and yours, hot and very similar. My envy and greed and yours, identical. Why must I be cursed to be like you?

If I wanted, I could choke myself to death again. I’ll screamed “I don’t want to be the devil!” Although I had unknowingly, and unconsciously followed your steps.

At least I am ashamed for acting like a wild animal.

Mother, the day you cried, you did not care. You walked away.

I was helpless. The wound, the mistake. My father was helpless.

My aunt was furious. My brothers and sister, confused. It was meteoroid impact on the moon.

How could I call you my mother when all I learned is the knife carried in your hand?

G. | Mother

[xingflowers]

I could’ve sworn I was already dead, but like Izanami, she was very well alive in the underworld. Though, she was like a peach who withered into soft skin and pit. My body certainly doesn’t spoil.

Like her death, I burned, burned, burned.

I watched my son burn.

And I swore I’ll kill a thousand of his people. For my husband, who has not done one thing for his boy.

I took his woman and their children. I took his court, his palace walls, his citizens, until everything were in ashes. Their screams, like a harmony hummed with passion. And then, the wind sang its solo.

I watched the breakdown of a tyrannical king. He ripped his neck open, and howled. He echoes “What have you done!?” I said, “My revenge.” I watched the excessive pride in a man die an instant death.

His eyes melted into blood like his father, Izanagi.

G. | Izanagi and Izanami Repeated

[xingflowers]

DEATH (死)

一。 In the moonlight, I run in a field of colorful flowers. In shades of red, pink, blue, yellow, orange and violet.

二。 In this dream, there is only tranquility. You and me, content in this imaginary world where there isn’t a melancholic moment. The stars above us twinkle brightly and tell us stories. We read them, and the rotating hemisphere is like a page of a book turning.

三。 This fantasy is crushed by the hammer of reality. You and I, no longer in the same realms. I live among the hydric stars and you live among the field of flowers. I wish I could feel the cold grass underneath my feet, and the fragrance of the flowers fill my lungs and refresh my body.

四。 So many times, I wished to live in the moonlight. Why didn’t I think I would miss the delights of the sleeping earth?

G. | Response poem to Gessekai by Buck-Tick

[xingflowers]

September. It's a new moon tonight, and my heart feels like a vacant room. Though, I know in the coming days, the moon will wax and I will feel beautiful and fulfilled. The virgo constellation is my witness and the planets will lead my path. I wish upon the stars to take care of me.

G. | September

[nehmesis]

Lost in Beijing is a very good film. An english subtitled version should be available online.

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