i don't wanna die. i want that to be abundantly clear. i do not want to die. but i'm so tired. my body hurts. my emotions are at full intensity 24/7 except for the days where i feel nothing at all. i feel sick most days. i'm tired, and it feels like life just keeps getting more difficult and complicated and scary. i feel like a little kid, but i don't let anyone see me slip into that because vulnerability is terrifying. it's all just completely exhausting...
i don't wanna die, but life is exhausting.








