#ghost-van

[the-kinfesssional]

i ztill mizz my mama (Dr RETRO), guyz…

[i still miss my mama (Dr Retro), guys…]

-(a very canon divergent) Gnarpy (Regretevator), @ghost-van

Hug?

[the-kinfesssional]

[ for the canon differences ask game! ]

(we’ll probably use this format for future ask games btw, we love bullet points! we tried to keep the special text to a minimum, but if you would like less we’ll try to use less in the future! the special text just lets us read it better in a format related way)

man, where would we even start??? there’s about 40 of us fictionkins so far, so i guess we’ll just list some random stuff & who it’s from using the format [Source/Full Name, Source]

EX [Evil Xisuma, Hermitcraft] (mod EX from over on @/hermitcraftkinfessions!) got banned to the void by their twin, Xisuma, on accident instead of on purpose

Scythe [Scythe/Rifle, PHIGHTING! (Roblox)] has a ton of differences from canon, but three of the most notable ones is that 1; instead of a cult it’s basically the mafia she’s involved with (mostly cuz of her ‘bio’ family, which is another difference), 2; she’s 46 instead of 42 (not in the future, she’s just a bit older than her canon-canon self), & 3; she’s married to Windforce & thus is Ban Hammer’s step(?)-mom (we’re in contact with her Ban :3)

Dan/RT [Daniel/RTGame, mixed-MC(YT)verse/sort of RT Miitopia (NOT the CC!!! our version of the C!!! /srs)] adopted Chat [Twitch Chat, RT Miitopia/mixed-MC(YT)verse, not our fictkin but one of our best friend’s fictkins], Cupcake [RT Miitopia/mixed-MC(YT)verse/sort of Pokémon], & Dread [(name references Existential Dread but they just go by) Dread, RT Miitopia/sort of mixed-MC(YT)verse]

Marie is April’s [Agent 4, Splatoon] adoptive mother, & thus Callie is her adoptive aunt & Craig Cuttlefish is their adoptive (great?)grandfather

Voltz [Ranboo, Voltz Wars (on YouTube, unfortunately shelved)] actually met Jack & Tubbo & befriended them, & also the Captain has basically adopted him. they also really like spaghetti for some reason.

Sailor [Sailor Waddle Dee, Kirby game series] is transfem she/they, & is bio cousins with Bandee [Bandana Waddle Dee, Kirby game series] who is transmasc he/they

this got really long, we tend to do that, we apologize 😔

-@ghost-van

It's okay. That's interesting.

[the-kinfesssional]

fellas is it gay to clink your helmet against another guy’s mask? (/silly)

-Hyperlaser (PHIGHTING!) from @ghost-van

Gay 🫵👁️👁️/silly

[the-kinfesssional]

also sending in an actual kinfession cuz i wanna just get this out to someone other than us i guess-

so in my source there’s a deity named illumina, & in my canon he kinda sorta maybe “blessed” (cursed) me, solely to get at my dad i think (my dad is also a deity, they are literally brothers but i don’t consider illumina an uncle). he caused my blood color to change from red to lilac, my horns to start growing again, & made me grow white/very light lilac wings that look similar to his own (which hurt a lot btw), but also last time i molted the feathers grew in black so i dunno what happened there tbh.

but anyways, recently i remembered that part of why i sleep so horribly is not only because of natural nightmares, but also apparently him “hyjacking”/manipulating my dreams, & sometimes just straight up appearing in them. i’m going to be completely honest with you, i have not slept in source for over a month because i’m terrified to, but we ball :D

OH YEA also i have a adopted kid now! partially why i’m scared to sleep but we ball!!

-Sword from PHIGHTING! on ROBLOX, @ghost-van

I have no idea how to react but really hope it gets better

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don’t tell my brother but i miggggghhhtttt have just gotten jumped today in source. & they might’ve broken my right wing with their foot. & snapped/cracked some of my right horn. ’:>

-Valk/Mic (PHIGHTING! on Roblox) from @ghost-van

Ouch

[the-kinfesssional]

holy moly there’s other phighting people on this blog?

-so many phighting fictkins like SO many, @ghost-van

I attract phighting kins or something

[the-kinfesssional]

struggling with labels for myself but the one thing that won’t change even if i change my labels is how much i love my boyfriend AAUAGHSGEWGGWGEGWGWGFWGWHH i’m still too scared to call him pop rocks directly though..

i feel weird for not wanting to call our relationship a straight one, even if i think i might lean more towards femm than masc most of the time even though i label myself as bigender genderfluid right now. the others keep telling me to just have fun with it & not worry about labels but i’m still really set on describing myself with them. i know our relationship would be inherently queer regardless since he’s omni & i’m probably pan, maybe demi, but i dunno, it just feels.. i dunno. in my brain when it comes to relationships i’m a guy, but outside of that i’ve started seeing myself as a girl i think. i dunno what to do.

rocket, i know you’ll see this, ily sm <3

-Sword (PHIGHTING! on Roblox) from @ghost-van

If you're not sure with labels, unlabeled can always work. Don't worry, you don't need to label. It feels weird, though, that's true .

[the-kinfesssional]

[cw/tw - casual talk of hanahaki]

i swear every few months one of us gets hanahaki 😭

first it was queerplatonic for someone who also had mutual hanahaki, then it was familial for 10 PEOPLE, & then it was romantic for someone who had a bad past experience with romance/love 💀

these were all different fictkins from different sources (well, the first two can technically meet in source, but yk), & they were all requited & ended up getting sorted out.

the one happening currently though, again from a different kin & source from the previous ones, is romantic with a hint of platonic for someone they’ve known since childhood & consider to be one of their best friends. we’re thinking it was lowkey & maybe dormant(?) for a while, but the bad spiral they went down recently where they convinced themself that their two best friends hated them made it flare up & be sudden onset. it would explain why & how it progressed so quickly practically out of nowhere.

our friend has a fictkin of the person it’s for, one of our kin’s canonmates actually, but we’re too anxious to say anything about it directly to them, let alone ask them about it straight up. we know they send in asks to this blog too though, so if they see this:

hiiiii we still luv you guys ofc despite the above stuff!! don’t feel bad about it, it’s not our first rodeo lmao

-@ghost-van

Oh dear. That does not sound good.