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I wanna feel like this foreva. IG: @ghostfacelo

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Femme Fatale Shot by Penglish

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I made plans with you, and I won’t let them fall through. 🌹

I told my photographers not to edit my scars and stretch marks anymore. I want to inspire others to love the skin that they're in.

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Let Them Eat First Taste

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Me for Arie Debor

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January 22nd, 2016: Untitled

I’m a mess. I just needed 3 text posts fully typed and deleted by mistake to prove it. I’m high off of Day-Quil.

Note to self: Once you hit the 2nd paragraph *save as draft*

Have a lot on my mind per usual. Not feeling well. Horny. Alone. It’s raining. Supposedly going to snow and freeze over in the morning.

I miss my family but we need space.

Missing my dad, he calls daily but I don’t have the energy to explain my most recent mistakes. Fucking up in life. Not being perfect.

Curious about my sisters love life. We used to be so close and I wonder if she goes through the same things I go through…even though she’s married.

I’ve been writing a lot of poetry and lyrics. The only things that seem to make it into my journal these days. Recalling events makes me anxious, so I’d rather come up with clever, discreet ways to express my emotions. Last night I kicked it with Gina and Xae, we’re probably going to grow old together if no one will have us.

I can’t stop hooking up with my ex, my heart, l guess I'm the deranged ex girlfriend now. I’m suffering from a sinus infection and I literally just wanted to be cuddled. So here I am. At this point it’s not even about the sex. I don’t know. I guess this is what young people do when they’re confused and/or in love. Or at least afraid of something. There’s really no name or air for this situation. I’m probably more comfortable than I should be with this. I’ve never entertained something like this. But I’m at the point where I’d rather feel what I feel now than to feel nothing at all.

The thought of school being right around the corner makes my stomach knot up. The fact that my family me members closest in age to me are marrying and have children and I can’t even decide on a major to fit my skill sets. I’ve been talking to Leo a lot for guidance and he said he once had the same issues as a creative. Sometimes having multiple talents can make it difficult to just focus on perfecting one thing at a time. Balancing love, his passion, and the curveballs life would throw him. I’m good at reading and retaining information, recalling it audibly and visually. I’m good at making things look aesthetically appealing (fashion, hair, make up). Also good at organizing and curating. I’m also a passionate lover, companion, and nurturer. He’s teaching me to be more assertive and how to exude my ‘queen like energy’. He says it’s not hard for people to stare at me when I walk into a room, now’s the time for them to feel me. I completely agree, I go overlooked because I don’t demand attention…well at least not the way I should at this point in my career as a creative. A lot more lonely nights in store. I have the tools I need for success. God, Supporters, Open mindset, proper guards, and no ceilings.

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For You

Fly to my city you know I got time just to spend on you You say you bored with ya grind Boy damn I'm sorry it's that way for you I just booked a new city, you know I'll be back again. These days I stay in my lane, the pace is what's driving me insane You know when I call To pick up, cause the callings not regular You know I'm not like them regulars You know you real and that why I mess with you I See you been drinking and stunting boy you need chill alright? Come to the city just trus that I'll make you feel alright And you know what I'm saying It's so different around here without you babe You know I can't sleep all I do is think about you all night long Why are playing? What is this game? When you ready to change? I guess I'll be waiting here for you Ride to the city I got time just to spend on you Baby you know that's just how I do things And I been on you I owe you more than just time I know that's been on your mind Baby life's changed so much since I last saw youuuu baby Right now You just hold me tight We gone be alright I just need you baby in my life You know what I'm saying it's so different without you around here babe Baby are you really for me think about it I'm almost over you... I'm at party in Atlanta. I'm for you it's never felt so right Where do we go from here Where do you go from here When you not in the city where do you chill