What do you think of soft rerir, when columbina meets him in the moon gate? How sane he is without the abyss or the voices in his head and how he calls tholondis his former lover (ouch my soul).
But could you imagine rerir slowly accepting the past that he’ll never get back and growing feelings for reader?
Absolute word vomit, my bad! 😞
no warnings, this is just sadness slapped upon a slate
Lobotomized rerir has done some serious work on himself. Yeah, he’s lost touch with his killer instincts, but what remains in his soul is an ache that cannot be fixed with the presence of evil. He knows that deep down he never deserved you, that you are someone much better than he was ever born to be.
He wallows in the feeling of missing you, craving your warmth pressed into his own decaying body. Yet, he knows that he cannot bring himself to subject you to being trapped in a limitless space of loneliness. Rerir knows that you deserve better than one of the Five Sinners— no amount of begging to the Gods will let him see you again.
Rerir stands at the edge of a memory pool and watches your face ripple in the water when he brushes a finger against what should be your cheek. Tholindis’s memory brushes against his skin like a whisper of want, and he lets it stay there like a wound. It festers in him, dragging him back to look into her eyes and see her for how their relationship really was.
It comes first as a caress to his withered soul, your pleading eyes begging him to let you go. He remembers how it felt when you asked so sweetly, and at first he thought that it was his goal being obstructed that made him say “No.” so quickly. So, he sat with within those memory pools and rewatched the interactions with you until they burned in his eyelids.
He never loved Tholindis like he loves you, he wanted her for comfort. But you, you’re home for a broken man that needs the sanctity of you. You, the Moon Goddess, are his religion. You are his reason for living and breathing. Rerir just sits there in those memory pools and traces your face with scarred fingers, idling in his emotions and watching you laugh at your freedom once again.
Okayyy sooo I was curious about the rest of what you wrote for Rerir... Rerir finally got out of the moon gate (of course he will, he has a weekly boss for nod krai anywayy) met with you. Let's say you have feelings for him too...How would that be??, 💞
omggg i expanded upon this with oomf and he’s really not right in the head once he finally leaves the moon gate! poly!rerir/tholindis x mg!reader
cw for references to cannibalism
“if he could just touch her skin once it’d be enough to satisfy him for another hundred years, to smell her perfume and breathe her in. he can feel how her heart longs for him, well, since she ate part of his flesh yk🤭 he feels how she calls for his name in the night with sighs of lust, with a timbre of need as she imagines being sandwiched between her two former spouses”
and
“imagine red string of fate but for reader it’s a collar that only tholinids and rerir can see and tug on. watching her suddenly choke on air and grab at her throat while tholindis and rerir lay on each others laps and make out”
i can definitely expand more upon this at a later date, but i was gonna smack dottore into this hell ship since he was the one that revived rerir!
