#gidget writes

[gidgetsallgrownup]

My subconscious isn’t giving up on you so neither will I

I had the best dream about you last night. I can’t remember it all, there was a lot that was weird about it, but, dreams are like that, right? What I do remember is not having to seek you out or chase after you. You came to me. You were looking for me. If I motioned for you to come sit next to me, you did. If we were supposed to split up then meet somewhere at a given time, you were there. Before I arrived. Your face lit up when you saw me. Not once did you see me as a distraction, or drag, or someone you barely knew. I made you feel good. We laughed, at each other, and together, at other amusing things. We had a ball. And even though I woke up somewhat suddenly, the dream was leading to more beautiful things, more smiles, and more love.

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[gidgetsallgrownup]

Burning bridges only works with people who aren’t willing to swim.

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[gidgetsallgrownup]

I dream of lying in your arms and it soothes me In the morning I feel restless I’m agitated all day Knowing that isn’t my place Wondering why I keep having that dream It relaxes me And so I get back in bed every night And dream of calm Of where I long to be I dream of you

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[gidgetsallgrownup]

For just a few precious moments

which sometimes come so unexpectedly

that I almost miss them

It’s quiet inside

Inside the house

Inside my mind

And I can finally

hear my own thoughts

catch my breath

and find some peace

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[gidgetsallgrownup]

My heart hurts I don’t know what to do without you in my life Everything just feels wrong

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[gidgetsallgrownup]

Bruised

I’m battered 

Red and swollen 

I might have done it 

to myself 

Walked into a wall 

Banged my elbow 

against a table 

Scraped my knees 

on the hard wood floor 

Or I might be 

beating myself up 

In my mind 

In my sleep 

Subconsciously trying to think

of anything else 

But the pain

of missing you 

... 

it’s not working.

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[gidgetsallgrownup]

Need

What I feel is more than desire

it’s a hunger

a need

for your body to be pressed against mine

for your arms to embrace me

for your mouth to consume me

for your mind to discover my deepest secrets

and for your heart to be the place

where I belong.

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[gidgetsallgrownup]

I care.

Other people not caring

doesn’t mean that I don’t.

Other people not caring

doesn’t mean that I shouldn’t.

Me caring doesn’t mean

I’m judging

or trying to interfere.

It just means that

you matter

as a person.

You matter

to me.

@gidgetsallgrownup