just found out that my sister (the one i always post about and literally was with this weekend) has been spreading hateful disgusting lies about me. even messaged lovely bf and my bff M to spread false evil shit about me. i am so angry ive been screaming and crying for 2 hours. i cannot believe she has been doing this shit for 2 weeks and i JUST found out because M told me. my sister has never brought it up ad has pretended like none of it happened this whole time.
my entire family is evil and disgusting and thats why im so fucked up and am in tons of therapy and being sent back to the fucking kingston 3D clinic. why the fuck is she out here making everything worse than it already is? im angry and livid and fucking hurt.
i just want my grandma to pass already so i can escape her and her evil and never have to talk to anyone in my family again. i need out of here. i cant be here anymore. maybe i'll just say fuck going back to college this fall and lose more weight so they send me to the toronto inpatient so i can get a 6 month break from everyone. i dont even care if they put me on a feeding tube i just need away from this evil fucking family who live to break me down
i cant do this shit anymore i dont even want to be alive anymore. i wish i was born with parents who wanted me and loved me and i wish i didnt have to be given to my grandparents and i wish i had siblings who cared who didnt want to spread lies about me. im done with all of this i was set up to fail at fucking conception what is even the fucking point anymore