#ginggeeee

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I feel so alone and empty right now. 

I want to know why you stayed with me after I admitted to being unfaithful again. I want to know why you didn't cry. I want to know why you gave me CPR when I suffocated myself. Twice. I want to know what's going through your head. Are you not upset because you've done it too? Have you just given up on me but you're staying because I'm the only girl who ever said yes? 

I love you. You're the best decision I've ever made and the only person I've ever really loved. You're this amazing, perfect guy and I just don't understand why you're with someone like me. 

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Just got fucked so hard I can no longer stand. 

Proper Job!

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Boyfriend is so boss. He's buying me a set or ear stretchers just because <3 awh him. 

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XVI-III-MMXII

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I'M ENGAGED

Okay so it's actually kinda cute how it happend :3

Basically we were in a club in Brum talking about everything and we decided that "love conquours all" (lame, i know). I said "does this mean you're my boyfriend again?" and he just got down on one knee infront of everyone and proposed :'3 asdfghjklASDFGHJKL  genuinley still in shock like I thought I'd lost him for good and wow. eeeeeeeeeeh ^_^ <3

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Actually getting ridiculously excited about Birmingham and getting to see Aoife, James, Alex and Chloe :D Nervous, but excited none the less ^-^

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Dear God I miss James *cries*. It's only been 12 hours since he left and I'm already going a wee bit insane. Refusing to go near my bed because it still smells like him and it's just upsetting me >.<. Ughhhh. So fucking tired but just can't sleep without him here. Terrific.

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Bleh

I've slept for pretty much the whole day and now James is away to bed because he's so tired. It's our last day together and our 5 months, and I just wish we'd made more of it. I might go buy him some rum and curry or something, idk. Dreading tomorrow morning when he leaves though. I'll be all alone for 3 days *cries* uhh feeling so shitty today...