So look, i am about to go on a long ass post about the things that i feel and i deem it necessary to say as i do not think people fully understand my intentions. I know that there are posts of mine that can come across as a bit harsh or rash and I do not mean for it to. At all. My passion that i have inside me burns that sometimes it gets the best of me. Domestic violence is one of those things that is very evil and dark and I do not think people truly understand the full concept of what all goes on with it. It is so much more than a punch to the face or your spouse spitting curse words at you making you feel little and like shit. Oh no there is so much more. It can literally damage someone to their core. Their inner being is completely changed. Is it fixable, sure it is but with some serious healing that one has to really work for and get. Its one of those things that does not get better overnight but no it takes years. It is true that people die every single day from it. Loved ones are left behind wondering what could i have done to help that person not die. They would blame themselves for not being there more. I know personally of a few people one of which i grew up with. I cannot believe she is no longer here with us. She was shot in back of her head all because she told her husband she wanted a divorce. Another girl that i met in the shelter and we became close friends hung out for a few years she was there for me going through my ups and downs and so forth me helping her through things. We ended up out the shelter after a year and got a place together this was in California some years ago. Long story short I was watching her young daughter (3) while mom worked. Mom never came home Her ex found her at work and well he ended her life by stabbing her. Anyways so yes I take the domestic violence topic very seriously all the time. People tell me well angel you are being too fucking dramatic i highly doubt that andy and juliet would ever come to that. Well first off do not ever call any abuse “not that bad” no such thing as “not that bad” in domestic violence situations they are all bad they are all life changing. They all affect our lives and for the most part the changes stay with you for life. They dont just magically go away the nightmares do not just go away. The anxiety does not just go away. I have learned that my place in this world is to help people out of their hell they are in. EVERYBODY deserves a chance to be happy and live a long and happy life. Why should i not say how i feel about the subject why should i stay quiet? How does one stay quiet especially when one has lived it been through it and has walked out not only alive but I have a passion and desire to help those in need. I have talked to many of my followers via dm and talked one out of hurting herself that to me is a huge deal. Nobody should ever feel alone nobody should ever feel like they should want to die or that they deserve to die its not right. Just know you are not alone and just know that its okay to hurt and to be sad but that pain and sadness is temporary if you allow it to be do not let it take over your entire life. Find the change you want, Be the change you want. Practice that self love and forgiveness I always talk about. When you practice your self love then you can find others to love you for who you are and you can heal faster. This is what i have done and it works. It truly works. Now for Andy i know i get alot of hate for talking about my concerns for him. When i talk about andy I quit looking at him like a musician but a person because he is indeed a human as so is juliet . I try my best to look at her like a person but I cannot help seeing the monster she is. While i do not need reminding that his story and every other persons story is different such as mine that is very true yes , BUTTTTTTT the ingredients or common denominator, of the story is the same is it not? Is there not a abuser, a victim, family for both victim and abuser, and the worried friends for the victim , yes there is. I am going to describe the abuse like a cake okay, the story is the presentation of the cake or appearance, the ingredients is the people involved, now the overall thing is it is still a cake, but every cake looks different taste different some take longer to make others not so much. Some are big cakes some are small, you get where im going with this. But the overall message here is that they are all still cake they have the same overall stuff in each of them. there is so much i want to add and i will but im going to stop here as my fingers cant keep up with my brain here. lol but this is real and i wanted to share it.