how LONG had it been ? insidious&& lodged oh so deep within her bones , lacing through her veins until loneliness is all she knew --- missing him was all she felt . body not her own , nothing felt quite right , && yet she made the best of what she had been given ; escaping the mad titan within nothing but the clothes on her back , weapon duty from disuse . a life WITHOUT corvus upon earth was hardly what she had wanted for herself , nothing she had seen in her future , && yet now it was the dark reality she held within her hands -- his life for hers , at least , that was what she was sure had happened . given chance to escape , && he had PUSHED her to take it , refused to hear of her staying && dying at his side .
LIVE ! FOR ME , YOU HAVE TO LIVE, PROXIMA . A LIFE WITHOUT YOU IS NOTHING , HUSBAND , DON’T DO THIS !
over && over , she saw it in flashes when sleep refused to find her . felt his hand releasing hers && suddenly all she knew was darkness . how LONG had it been ? months ? mere weeks ? she sought out death those first days , determined to follow her love to the grave , but each time something intervened , something altered her path && she was back to nursing full glass of amber liquid to numb the pain that would not leave her be .
but now ... now HE stands before her ( MINE MINE MINE ) , returned && yet , she does not wish to believe it , does not wish to FEEL that joy out of certainty that this is a mere dream , that dawn will come && steal him away from her , is that not always the way it went ? spider-like appendages clench at her sides , gaze unrelenting as it pierces he who stands there . ‘ this isn’t real ... ‘ / @glaivewield