#gnu sara

[swaps55]

Happy birthday @dearophelia 💜

[swaps55]

Dreaming that dearophelia is still alive and this was all a huge mistake the day before her memorial is really unfair.

[swaps55]

Thinking about you today. Was all out of sorts and realized it’s a month to the day. Much love and many hugs ❤️

So many hugs RIGHT back at you. I've been doing a lot of thinking about fandom and tumblr lately, and the people who come and go. I've been here a decade, and there are a lot of names I don't see any more.

I'm really glad I still see yours. <3

[axiolotl]

hi to everyone who recently followed me after sara's memorial! i am so so happy to connect with all these people who loved sara, who spent time with her, who could share so many amazing stories about her. i think of her every day, through all the gifts she gave me, the things i learned from her, the love i share because of her. i try to share her humor, genorosity, love and creative spirit every day, and im glad to know i'm not alone in that

that being said: i am running my weird lil freak personal blog over here. i post personal stuff, bg3, plants, activism, educational stuff. if we follow each other a bit, and you realize you'd rather unfollow, literally no hard feelings. we're adults, we're all about curating our experience here, i will literally never take it personally

that being said, if you would like to continue following but theres things youd like tagged then please let me know! i try to tag most everything and would be more than happy to tag something i mightve missed

[axiolotl]

i've been writing journal entry after journal entry about what id eventually wanna write here about sara/dearophelia and how amazing it was to be her friend and play games with her but rn all i could think about is how much i wished I told her about all the little fucked up things my character samar, who I made for and played in her level 20 game, is getting up to. how when he studied in waterdeep at level 5 he met his rival, a divination wizard named ingrid. she got kicked out of blackstaff academy for the simple crime of wanting to learn some forbidden fucked up necromancy. how samar and ingrid end up being the most crazy insane "you are both deranged but you're perfect for each other, don't inflict this on anyone else" couple

she already knew samar, my beautiful half-orc bladesinger wizard, has an insane drive for power and knowledge and domination on the battlefield. and he was so insane in game, and i wish i'd told her all the fucked up little things i made on the side about him, like how him and his wife ingrid go on a quest for immortality and power and end up creating phylacteries and will happily become fucked up liches forever and ever if it means they can learn more magic and power

im gonna tell the friends ive made through that campaign, and maybe one day ill share all the notes i took about our adventures. just -- sometimes i see a silly little post that relates to this character, and my first instinct is to want to send it to sara and tell her all about my little freak. then talk about a bunch of other things. and then i remember, and i remember how special creating stories together is, and how lucky i am we got to make one together, and how she invited me to a campaign that gave me another lil OC ill keep with me forever ❤️