i dont get it. this friend of mine has an eating disorder (wont call names) and she had to go to the hospital for quite a few times as well and everything. i support her for as far as i can (not pushing her to eat or to gain weight just telling her the usual stuff: i love you, everyone loves you, no matter how you look blabla). she told me she's very quiet about it, nobody has to know, bladiebloediebla, yknow things that mostly plays a role. and then she goes and tells everyone how she lost 10 kg and she told them she's proud of it and i guess i sHOULDT EVEN TRY to understand but its so frustrating to see how she wont stop with it and tells everyone with a smile how happy she is to lose so much weight at once. i know, it maybe makes her happy but im just scared. she had to go to the hospital a few weeks ago, so what the fuck is gonna happen now?? i dont even get how others think its normal when she says such a thing. she lost 10 kg in such a short time. everyone is like "woa gr8 you go wish i were so thin woa im" but no one asks "why?" why did you lose weight, why did you want to lose weight? nobody stops and thinks "hEY ITS NOT NORMAL OH I SHOULDNT ENCOURAGE HER I SHOULD SUPPORT HER I SHOULDNT TELL HER TO EAT MORE" because i fuck you not someone literally just told her "dang gurl you need to eat more!" im so fucjdfiogvjegeoqeijrgo?!?!?!?!?
and then she tells me not to worry and she gets upset when i get angry about that. like how do you expect me not to worry??? i wont tell you to eat more, wont push you, because i know others are doing that already and it wont help at all, but dont literally tell me "you shouldnt worry" because i should ok youre my friend and i care about you, thats what friends do and if theres one thing that gets me eXTREMEELYYYY angry its other people telling me what to do when it involves THESE kind of things.
uergjqegioergjoier i swear to god if i could id walk up to her and give her a good smack in her face and then a kiss on the cheek and give her flowers or something i just hate everything so much
maybe i shouldnt complain because i dont actually understand shit since i dont have an eating disorder??? but this bothers me so fcu kging much i hate everything aND myself fuck i just dont want to lose her
