"Look, I know that this was all just supposed to be an act to keep Tae off my back, not letting real feelings get into it ... but I can't keep this to myself anymore. I haven't let myself feel this way about anyone in a long time. Not since ... him. But even when I know it's all supposed to be pretend, being with you makes me feel safe. Wanted. Seen."
She wanted to stop. God, more than anything she wanted to turn off the floodgates and somehow pretend that this was a joke, that she was just messing with him, but she couldn't do it anymore. It just wasn't fair for him to agree to this, under the assumption that it wasn't real, when for her ... it was. He deserved the truth, even if it everything fell apart afterwards. Even if she ruined this, the way she always ruined every relationship--fake or otherwise.
"I know you've just been a good sport, going through the motions for my sake, but it didn't feel right letting this go on without being honest. If my feelings make it too weird to keep this up, I-I understand if you--"
In an instant, his lips were on hers, stealing away whatever else she would have said next. His eyes had been so hard to read when she first started talking, unable to gauge whether he was angry, confused, anything at all. And so she had just kept rambling, hoping that if she said the right thing, he would finally just ... say something. This, though, had not at all been the reaction she was expecting.
With a soft muffled moan ... she went with it, fingers combing through his hair as she cupped the back of his head and pulled him in closer. It was far from the first time they had kissed by now, in public and in photos/videos she had posted online to keep Tae at bay. But it had always been as empty and hollow as their performative 'relationship'. Something to just keep up appearances.
But this kiss was *nothing* like that. There was a hunger behind it that she had never felt from Jinu before and it was enough to make her knees feel weak.
