#goldennautilus

[secret-delirium]

I am still thinking about the terrifying concept of being known, of being a thought in someone else's head or a name on their lips, words and ideas that I have no control over. People will think things about me and have opinions because I exist, and that's pretty scary. :<

They say such nice things though. I must be doing something right.

It's a funny feeling to know that like

Ha ha

Uh

Yeah.

That conversation about uh. Gender identity? Sexuality? (I don't get it but I try to be polite about it.) Well, the topic sure did get derailed. It didn't really go back to the source topic either, it kept going on and on about empathic ability until it ended.

I took these screenshots a couple days ago and they've just been sitting on my palmhusk, so I finally decided to make a post about it, since it's just rattling about in my noggin anyway. I guess I didn't actually have much to say beyond "wah wah people KNOW me and TALK about me, how horrible!!" and "gee I didn't know Theo felt that way about me." It does feel a bit better to put it here though.

[allcatsaregreyt]

GN: hey miinii me, how tall are you?

TA: six f00t, why?

GN: are you overly broad mu2cle wii2e?

TA: HAH

TA: i am just

GN: good.

TA: the buffest m0therfucker

TA: when i flex angels cry

GN: okay, you're a bean pole, good.

[secret-delirium]

Must be convenient to be a little bitch only when it affects someone you're quadded to, you back-end-fucking vipede. NOW you're some kind of paragon everyone should listen to? "Ooh uuhhh bluh bloo, I haven't given you guys in THIS SPECIFIC CHAT a reason to think I'd side with someone irredeemable, ooh bloo." Well listen up nipplenards, you haven't given anyone a reason TO listen to you either, and I personally know from experience how much of an ass-pinching hypocrite you are being right now.

So go ahead, throw your paragraphs of whining into the chat and sign off. You're just as allergic to constructive conversation as you've always been and anyone swayed by such a performative action deserves no less than my ire and no more than a passing sigh.

You two are a pretty perfect couple, I must say.

[secret-delirium]

"Then don't come back." What the fuck kind of petty bullshit is this? Some medical professional HE is. And then Faithful, escalating the situation instead of helping to lessen it. All these posturing self-righteous fucks, it's enough to agitate me.

Is that who I am now, too? I don't want to be bitter, but I'm finding more and more that people disgust me. Shallow, caught up in the moment, superficial animals who bare their teeth before their hearts. This conversation didn't involve me at all, my qualms aren't personal in the slightest. It still annoys me to see them be so disgusting, offends my senses when personal gripes aren't dealt with correctly.

Ugh.