Good Always Wins
I had a revelation just now...a good one. It came to me like a feather landing on a rock. It gave me an idea of how to proceed and move forward with my situation in a reasonably good way. It comes as an outline or plan of how I will write from now on. I will write all the good events and things first and then write about all the bad things with a summary at the end kind of. The idea came to me as I reminisced on the times I spent with my ex friend and some videos I took from recent times. I honestly did not remember most of these times which foreshadows one of the problems in this relation we had but as I watched them I felt more emotions. And honestly it kinda felt like I went back in time. PTSD? I still havent watched all the short clips we randomly made drunk. It is just too hard. People say time travel is impossible but I beg to differ! Anyways, to me he might as well be a dream but the memories forever baked into my brain are not dreams. So...I guess the scariest thought to me currently is that he will come back to me or he will somehow show up in my life again. Like I honestly dont know what is going on in his head. Have I spoiled it? But yeah I dont have a lot of clips and I dont want to. Like his face is burnt into my brain already lol. I just want to get all the good stuff that happened first down because even now I still love him. He is still and forever always be my dream.
